toomanyboys
April 24th, 2012, 03:45 PM
so, i got my BFP...i should be excited over the moon and totally thankful to god that i am.....well i would like to be. i am walking around in a daze i took 4 tests in 2 days i am intending to wait another 2 days and take one again....there are the little symptoms here and there.....slight nausea, boobs still a little sensitve...the fact that unlike my last 10 cycles i am not spotting from 10dpo makes me a little bit more confidant that thing's 'may' be ok....yet.....i am scared...
i found my old diary i kept for when i fell pregnant with my daughter....so far all my symptom seems to match with hers....the early BFP, the slight nausea, and just generally it correlates with the fact that like with her i have more weight than i ever had with my boys whilst conceiving, i also managed to maybe fit in 2 cuts offs then 2 O+12's. but then as i leafed throught the pages i find that i spotted at about 6w..this is how i lost 2 of my other pg in the past...once i hit 6 weeks bam. with my dd i spotted for about 1 -2 weeks...i had scans and blood tests done due to it to confirm the pg was viable....but i am scared to have to go through that again....
i am only 3 weeks right now 10dpo. so i have another 3 weeks to dwell and ponder and stay anxious...its proving to be so hard...because for every mintute of the day for every passing hour i am thinking about it...i still cannot belive i am pg and i wish there was a way of confirming that i will be ok.....this pregnancy has had a good start and am hoping it will stay this way...
but you know i am just so so anxious...i cannot even share this good news with anyone...i am also not telling dh as i feel there is no need to should anything go wrong as i can handle being upset and getting over it myself rather than having to deal with his disspaointemtn too.
arggghhhhhh......you would think i should be happy i got a BFP....if only things were this simple....
i found my old diary i kept for when i fell pregnant with my daughter....so far all my symptom seems to match with hers....the early BFP, the slight nausea, and just generally it correlates with the fact that like with her i have more weight than i ever had with my boys whilst conceiving, i also managed to maybe fit in 2 cuts offs then 2 O+12's. but then as i leafed throught the pages i find that i spotted at about 6w..this is how i lost 2 of my other pg in the past...once i hit 6 weeks bam. with my dd i spotted for about 1 -2 weeks...i had scans and blood tests done due to it to confirm the pg was viable....but i am scared to have to go through that again....
i am only 3 weeks right now 10dpo. so i have another 3 weeks to dwell and ponder and stay anxious...its proving to be so hard...because for every mintute of the day for every passing hour i am thinking about it...i still cannot belive i am pg and i wish there was a way of confirming that i will be ok.....this pregnancy has had a good start and am hoping it will stay this way...
but you know i am just so so anxious...i cannot even share this good news with anyone...i am also not telling dh as i feel there is no need to should anything go wrong as i can handle being upset and getting over it myself rather than having to deal with his disspaointemtn too.
arggghhhhhh......you would think i should be happy i got a BFP....if only things were this simple....