toomanyboys
May 4th, 2012, 02:34 AM
well i had my first realy vivid dream today around 4-5am this morning woke up with a panic attack...and it was so real i actually woke up wondering if it did happen.......
i dreamt i went my ultrasound and there were TWO little beans in there...and as dreams go....i managed to suddenly also find out that one was a boy and one a girl....in my dream i was happy and shocked but also evry dissapointed....becasue i really like the idea of twins but i just didn't want the blue baby at all....:(....
it feels bad to say this but i love the idea of twins yet having another boy or boys is filling me with dread....i am hoping this feeling will go away..i have no desire to shop blue or think i will enjoy saying i have another son....it is horrible i know...but it just goes to show that my GD is really really strong at the moment......i mean to have twins was always something i would kind of fantasise about but just don't want to share that joy with having a blue bundles...never mind 2 one seems to get me panicking...:(...
i am a really bad person really really bad... :(
i dreamt i went my ultrasound and there were TWO little beans in there...and as dreams go....i managed to suddenly also find out that one was a boy and one a girl....in my dream i was happy and shocked but also evry dissapointed....becasue i really like the idea of twins but i just didn't want the blue baby at all....:(....
it feels bad to say this but i love the idea of twins yet having another boy or boys is filling me with dread....i am hoping this feeling will go away..i have no desire to shop blue or think i will enjoy saying i have another son....it is horrible i know...but it just goes to show that my GD is really really strong at the moment......i mean to have twins was always something i would kind of fantasise about but just don't want to share that joy with having a blue bundles...never mind 2 one seems to get me panicking...:(...
i am a really bad person really really bad... :(