BoyDreaming
May 24th, 2012, 04:42 PM
With three of our four daughters I conceived with the help of Clomid. DD4 was conceived while I was on the mini pill and BFing DD3.
A few months ago I had a tubal because of pressure from DH and my family. My pregnancies have been complicated to say the least. My family keeps telling me, "Either your luck or the baby's luck will run out one of these days." Okay, fine, I get it that they're concerned. But... I don't feel "done." I have deeply regretted the tubal ever since I first awoke from it afterwards. I can still feel the numbness and bitterness of it.
DH and I have been in talks over the past couple months about either a tubal reversal or HT. I could have enough saved in a year or less for the tubal reversal, which is really enticing. But there's no guarantee of a son or even a pregnancy. And there's no ethical dilemma regarding girls vs. boys. With IVF, there are several packages that guarantee a baby. With HT, I get what I want. DH isn't worried about gender, he only wants a healthy baby in the end. I know I would be happy with whatever I got on delivery day, but then I go back to the costs. Ughh. I don't know what to do. I don't understand why I feel so torn.
A few months ago I had a tubal because of pressure from DH and my family. My pregnancies have been complicated to say the least. My family keeps telling me, "Either your luck or the baby's luck will run out one of these days." Okay, fine, I get it that they're concerned. But... I don't feel "done." I have deeply regretted the tubal ever since I first awoke from it afterwards. I can still feel the numbness and bitterness of it.
DH and I have been in talks over the past couple months about either a tubal reversal or HT. I could have enough saved in a year or less for the tubal reversal, which is really enticing. But there's no guarantee of a son or even a pregnancy. And there's no ethical dilemma regarding girls vs. boys. With IVF, there are several packages that guarantee a baby. With HT, I get what I want. DH isn't worried about gender, he only wants a healthy baby in the end. I know I would be happy with whatever I got on delivery day, but then I go back to the costs. Ughh. I don't know what to do. I don't understand why I feel so torn.