NeedPink
August 8th, 2012, 10:13 PM
Hello all,
Well, this is not planned at all so I am stunned at how this one possibly could've snucked by, but my thought that Vitex has screwed up my cycle was obviously not so accurate:(.
I am 6 days late today, and some gut feeling just told me to go buy a pregnancy test. And sure enough: it was a strong positive within seconds. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, but I am sort of disappointed. I mean: I was not swaying yet, the only thing that I started last month, was the vitex.
I am just so sad, and I guess I am experiencing premature gender disappointment - how stupid am I? I guess, I just wanted to know I did all I could to change as many sides of the dice to have some pink after two boys when my time came to sway. Also, my little one is (IMO only) 15months, and such a baby still, I would have liked an extra 6 months. I already feel that he gets neglected so much in lieu of his older brother, And now We'll have a baby so close to him. They'll be exactly two years apart, but it just feels too soon to me... Next thing is, we live in Canada, all our family in South africa, and I have nobody close to help. We've been discussing perhaps moving back, now I just can't see that happening any time soon. I just feel so overwhelmed right now. The thought of a little girl, might make this slightly more bearable, and I feel so guilty for thinking this.
Those of you that believe in God, please pray for me. For positive thoughts, for calmness and some healthy pink:). God knows my heart and desires, so I know that He will provide what is right for us and I pray for acceptance for what he gifts us.
NeedPink.
Well, this is not planned at all so I am stunned at how this one possibly could've snucked by, but my thought that Vitex has screwed up my cycle was obviously not so accurate:(.
I am 6 days late today, and some gut feeling just told me to go buy a pregnancy test. And sure enough: it was a strong positive within seconds. I don't mean to sound ungrateful, but I am sort of disappointed. I mean: I was not swaying yet, the only thing that I started last month, was the vitex.
I am just so sad, and I guess I am experiencing premature gender disappointment - how stupid am I? I guess, I just wanted to know I did all I could to change as many sides of the dice to have some pink after two boys when my time came to sway. Also, my little one is (IMO only) 15months, and such a baby still, I would have liked an extra 6 months. I already feel that he gets neglected so much in lieu of his older brother, And now We'll have a baby so close to him. They'll be exactly two years apart, but it just feels too soon to me... Next thing is, we live in Canada, all our family in South africa, and I have nobody close to help. We've been discussing perhaps moving back, now I just can't see that happening any time soon. I just feel so overwhelmed right now. The thought of a little girl, might make this slightly more bearable, and I feel so guilty for thinking this.
Those of you that believe in God, please pray for me. For positive thoughts, for calmness and some healthy pink:). God knows my heart and desires, so I know that He will provide what is right for us and I pray for acceptance for what he gifts us.
NeedPink.