1pinkwish
February 24th, 2011, 05:17 PM
I had my 38 wk apt today, and even though I have had 3 u/s since 20 wks I have done really well at not getting any gender clues whatsoever. My doc KNOWS the reason that I did not find out this time was because I was told wrong the last time, and it even put me to the point of being on antidepressants that HE prescribed.
So, anyway, I had another u/s today to confirm position and size of the baby. And when he was doing the leg measurements, he completely turned the screen away from me, saying, "I'm in the area and I don't want you to see anything." I thanked him, and just laughed a little.
Then when the u/s was over, I asked, "So, do you know what it is now?" And he replied, "Yeah, I'm very sure, but as YOU know, they are not 100%. But, I'm really, REALLY sure that it is what I think it is." And I just laughed again. Then, I said, "Oh, what was the heartrate?"
He quickly replied, "Oh man, I completely forgot to check! But SHE was moving all around, so I know HER heart is beating." My heart nearly STOPPED!! I thought, OH MY GOSH!! I KNOW HE DID NOT JUST DO THAT! I didn't say anything, and just tried to ignore the whole statement. But then he said something else referring to the baby as SHE again!!! UGH!!! I don't even know what to think!!
Obviously, I'm HOPING beyond HOPE that it IS a girl!! But, I didn't want to be told by u/s again cause after my experience the last time I know they can be wrong. And, I know that gender determination at 38 wks is NOT RELIABLE AT ALL!! Why did he do this?! UGH!!
And I know sometimes docs refer to all the babies as a specific pronoun, but he has NEVER referred to this baby by pronoun before AND it was right after him making it clear that he thinks he really KNOWS what the baby is.
And then the other thought is he could be trying to throw me off by using the opposite pronoun, but wouldn't that just be mean?! He knows I have 3 boys, he knows that I was told incorrectly girl the last time and it sent me into major depression, and he knows that I'm REALLY hopeful this one is a girl! I can't imagine anyone being cruel enough to try to "throw me off" my using girl pronouns in my situation!
I just don't even know how to feel at the moment! I didn't even tell my hubby that this happened, and I was at the u/s all by myself.
So, anyway, I had another u/s today to confirm position and size of the baby. And when he was doing the leg measurements, he completely turned the screen away from me, saying, "I'm in the area and I don't want you to see anything." I thanked him, and just laughed a little.
Then when the u/s was over, I asked, "So, do you know what it is now?" And he replied, "Yeah, I'm very sure, but as YOU know, they are not 100%. But, I'm really, REALLY sure that it is what I think it is." And I just laughed again. Then, I said, "Oh, what was the heartrate?"
He quickly replied, "Oh man, I completely forgot to check! But SHE was moving all around, so I know HER heart is beating." My heart nearly STOPPED!! I thought, OH MY GOSH!! I KNOW HE DID NOT JUST DO THAT! I didn't say anything, and just tried to ignore the whole statement. But then he said something else referring to the baby as SHE again!!! UGH!!! I don't even know what to think!!
Obviously, I'm HOPING beyond HOPE that it IS a girl!! But, I didn't want to be told by u/s again cause after my experience the last time I know they can be wrong. And, I know that gender determination at 38 wks is NOT RELIABLE AT ALL!! Why did he do this?! UGH!!
And I know sometimes docs refer to all the babies as a specific pronoun, but he has NEVER referred to this baby by pronoun before AND it was right after him making it clear that he thinks he really KNOWS what the baby is.
And then the other thought is he could be trying to throw me off by using the opposite pronoun, but wouldn't that just be mean?! He knows I have 3 boys, he knows that I was told incorrectly girl the last time and it sent me into major depression, and he knows that I'm REALLY hopeful this one is a girl! I can't imagine anyone being cruel enough to try to "throw me off" my using girl pronouns in my situation!
I just don't even know how to feel at the moment! I didn't even tell my hubby that this happened, and I was at the u/s all by myself.