xnicolax
March 28th, 2011, 04:25 AM
I didnt know where to post this, GD or High tech so I decided to put it here :) Feel free to move it if you feel it is more appropriate elsewhere.
I have spent the last 11 years of my life desperately trying to get that little girl I always assumed I would have, and I think, that has made me not realise what was in front of me all of the time. We have just had the most horrible situation in our family, my SIL (DH's sister) has died unexpectedly at a young age and we have all had to say goodbye to her. It has been awful, so very sad and unnecessary it had a lot to do with medical negligence and most likely could have been avoided. Her funeral was thursday, it was a horrible yet lovely day. Her family done her so proud. My DH's family is predominantly boys, there is loads of them, and most of them are older. They are all so close with their mam's, it made me realise that I dont know what the hell I have been thinking all of these years? I see boys in a new light, They have their moments but what kid doesnt?
My other BIL and SIL have just had a baby girl, I was insanely jealous when I heard they were having a girl, I have dreaded having to see her. I saw her on thursday, she is adorable and so tiny. I held her for ages but it didn't make me at all broody and I wasn't jealous at all. It was nice to give her back to her mother who had to mess on with the nappies and feeding instead of me for a change, lol.
My focus on life has changed, I am looking forward to spending more time with my DH and having our brood of boys around us. I dont want any more kids, I have everything I want already:bigsmile: I have had one failed HT cycle and have been planning another for some time now, we were going later in the year but it's all off and I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I know the option is there if I ever change my mind but for now im 100% happy with my descision. Of course I will be sticking round, still love it here but I will just be giving advice and general chit chat:bigsmile:
Thanks to everyone who has given me advice in the past on my GD and HT journeys, I wouldnt have been able to come through it without you all:heart:
I have spent the last 11 years of my life desperately trying to get that little girl I always assumed I would have, and I think, that has made me not realise what was in front of me all of the time. We have just had the most horrible situation in our family, my SIL (DH's sister) has died unexpectedly at a young age and we have all had to say goodbye to her. It has been awful, so very sad and unnecessary it had a lot to do with medical negligence and most likely could have been avoided. Her funeral was thursday, it was a horrible yet lovely day. Her family done her so proud. My DH's family is predominantly boys, there is loads of them, and most of them are older. They are all so close with their mam's, it made me realise that I dont know what the hell I have been thinking all of these years? I see boys in a new light, They have their moments but what kid doesnt?
My other BIL and SIL have just had a baby girl, I was insanely jealous when I heard they were having a girl, I have dreaded having to see her. I saw her on thursday, she is adorable and so tiny. I held her for ages but it didn't make me at all broody and I wasn't jealous at all. It was nice to give her back to her mother who had to mess on with the nappies and feeding instead of me for a change, lol.
My focus on life has changed, I am looking forward to spending more time with my DH and having our brood of boys around us. I dont want any more kids, I have everything I want already:bigsmile: I have had one failed HT cycle and have been planning another for some time now, we were going later in the year but it's all off and I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I know the option is there if I ever change my mind but for now im 100% happy with my descision. Of course I will be sticking round, still love it here but I will just be giving advice and general chit chat:bigsmile:
Thanks to everyone who has given me advice in the past on my GD and HT journeys, I wouldnt have been able to come through it without you all:heart: