prayforaboy
February 19th, 2013, 02:57 PM
Okay, I know I am being irrational, crazy…. Blah blah blah.
I was born and bought up in India and always felt like girls were not treated equally on some level… we were fed and educated the same but our birthdays were not a big deal where as our brother were and thousand more small things like that. So I became kind of a feminist and always loved girls more…if someone is family had given birth to a second or third girl I was the one to rush and celebrate, argue with elders who wanted a boy.
Here came the time I got pregnant the first time and I wanted a boy because husband’s family has all girls and everybody is expecting a boy from us. I wanted the pressure to be off if it was a boy but I was blessed with the most beautiful daughter. I had some GD but manageable and I love her to death. 2012 was the year to TTC our second and final child, I was so stressed about having another girl that I was convincing my husband for high tech gender selection but he said god wants to give us whatever is best for us. I started looking into natural swaying and BFP in Nov 2012. Now I am extremely nervous about baby’s gender. My FIL has some health problems and all he wants from us is a “grandson’, I know that if we have another girl his final wish would remain unfulfilled. I feel like if this is baby is a girl I will fail my family …. And I am not a good daughter in law. My husband’s brother has 3 girls and the pressure is on for us. I am not enjoying this pregnancy much ( extreme morning sickness) but all I care about is the gender of the baby. My biggest fear is that baby is a girl and How will I handle that…
All of this is stupid given that I love girls in general. I don’t know how will I gather the courage to handle the news. We will have 20 weeks scan in March middle.
Anybody felt the same? How did you handle it?
I was born and bought up in India and always felt like girls were not treated equally on some level… we were fed and educated the same but our birthdays were not a big deal where as our brother were and thousand more small things like that. So I became kind of a feminist and always loved girls more…if someone is family had given birth to a second or third girl I was the one to rush and celebrate, argue with elders who wanted a boy.
Here came the time I got pregnant the first time and I wanted a boy because husband’s family has all girls and everybody is expecting a boy from us. I wanted the pressure to be off if it was a boy but I was blessed with the most beautiful daughter. I had some GD but manageable and I love her to death. 2012 was the year to TTC our second and final child, I was so stressed about having another girl that I was convincing my husband for high tech gender selection but he said god wants to give us whatever is best for us. I started looking into natural swaying and BFP in Nov 2012. Now I am extremely nervous about baby’s gender. My FIL has some health problems and all he wants from us is a “grandson’, I know that if we have another girl his final wish would remain unfulfilled. I feel like if this is baby is a girl I will fail my family …. And I am not a good daughter in law. My husband’s brother has 3 girls and the pressure is on for us. I am not enjoying this pregnancy much ( extreme morning sickness) but all I care about is the gender of the baby. My biggest fear is that baby is a girl and How will I handle that…
All of this is stupid given that I love girls in general. I don’t know how will I gather the courage to handle the news. We will have 20 weeks scan in March middle.
Anybody felt the same? How did you handle it?