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Honeysucklelanegirl
March 21st, 2013, 08:11 AM
Well we were going to TTC a girl in May. I am going to weight watchers and was doing the L.E diet but the past week I have been really ill with stress.

I cant find a stable part time job as no one wants me to work for them due to my medical history(4 ops, stress, chronic asthma) (Apart from dodgy estate agents who expect me to drop leaflets for 11 hours for £50 and a rich person who is to posh to pick something out a bag themselves or go to a normal super market.....yes I'm being serious. Then they have a go because I wouldn't have their cat at mine while they are on one of their many cruises. I'm allergic to cats and he poo's on the floor every day!)I've finally had enough. So I'm really stressed about that and having no money.

Then just to make thing worst ....I'm doing a maths and English course at college to try and better myself. Maths is great but English is awful. I have been getting A'S and B'S for the course work but the teacher is leaving and her teaching lately has been, well ,crap to be honest. Then last week we had to study a poem. The problem was it was along the lines of something bad that happen to me. I have been battling with post traumatic stress for about 16 years and it has only been after my last lot of treatment I've managed to get a bit better but this poem has sent me right back. I've been really depressed all week ,had bad nightmares and been binge eating! I mean eating 6 chocolate bars in one go and anything else I can get my hands on and drinking loads of sugary tea,(I hate tea) so, yes, er Not good for a girl sway.
So for now I'm just going to have a normal healthy diet with added vitamin tablets (still lose weight though) and try and de stress. After ,when I'm better I will go back on the L.E diet for 3 months and hopfully if I have money then buy a personal plan. I will get my girl one day but now is sadly not the time.
Hoping I don't sway blue though eating good for a while then doing L.E plan again.x

harleyquinn
March 21st, 2013, 01:08 PM
I think you are wise to know yourself well enough to take a step back when you need to. Thats really impressive, rather than trying to stick a band-aid on things. PTSD is a constant struggle and the triggers are always there, I guess over time (and even 16 years is not always long enough, sadly), you learn to manage them better, but sometimes things pop up out of nowhere.

Take care of yourself, being a mommy is hard work as we know and getting yourself in good shape mentally is the most important thing. Don't worry about LE diet right now..just take care and tackle it when you are stronger. :)

Honeysucklelanegirl
March 21st, 2013, 02:32 PM
Thank you.(@:
I want to be a good mum/family (which I didn't have) so I got to make sure im doing the right thing.I posted on here about it as its so much better than talking to people I know.sometimes strangers are good haha. though saying that my parner is great.bless him,i woke him up at stupid o'clock with a nightmare.
yes I got warned about triggers. I had been coping with them but that one I wasn't prepared for.
Thanks for your support x

atomic sagebrush
March 25th, 2013, 12:15 PM
I'm sorry, I hope you are doing better soon!! Thinking of you.

Funkyfry
March 26th, 2013, 07:39 AM
I think your so right to put ttc off for a while until things settle down. It's another stress you can do without at the moment.

We too were hoping to ttc in the summer, my af was late this month and tbh it kind of freaked me out. I have decided to hold off now until nov to ttc. We can go on our hols and enjoy and not worry about our diet etc and what we are eating then in aug I am going to purchase a plan and be wll prepared by nov!

Best of luck to you xx

Honeysucklelanegirl
March 28th, 2013, 05:07 PM
Hi,Hope you are well.
I think that's a good plan to enjoy your holiday first. My af is always late now.It used to be 28 day regular but now it can be 32/34 days or more. I was due on about a few days ago but nothing. We got worried every month and did a test( as wanted to sway pink) but now got used to it being late lol. Im sure it was all the steroids I was on and stress.
Feeling a bit calmer this week.Managed to get a job but am only doing the odd 2 hrs here and there to start with.Finished maths course today but havnt turned up to English again though.
Did I mention the complete headcase that lives down stairs from us to? lolShe really makes me stressed.We moved in this flat about 2 years ago and she shouts all the time at her kid (some one reported her,we heard her shouting about this)She f's and blinds at her mum etc and plays music really loud everyday. We have now got the council involved.I swear she's made me get grey hair!......so that is another reason why not ttc at the min as she stresses me out to!im prob well in the boy sway zone!!!not what I want.
Think calm lol.
Hope you have a great holiday! and I hope your sway works. xx

Honeysucklelanegirl
March 28th, 2013, 05:10 PM
I'm sorry, I hope you are doing better soon!! Thinking of you.

Hi, Hope you are well. Thank you. I will get there . I am still reading every thing.....emmmm Ive dropped the vits after reading that they could still sway blue months later somewhere on here. Think I only needed them for a boost anyway. Am going to save for a plan soon.x