annabel♥lee
June 15th, 2013, 12:47 AM
When my amazing baby boy #3 was born, I thought my GD was cured. He's soooo precious. He's almost 11 months now and just the happiest, smiliest, smartest, sweetest little guy. I really thought I was over my desire for a girl.
But I'm realizing that I'm not. Every time a friend of mine who has 2 boys, goes on to have a girl for #3, I get SO jealous and depressed. It's weird because I really wouldn't change Nolan into a girl. I love him as a boy. I don't wish he had been a girl I don't think. But I want everyone who has 2 boys and is trying for a girl, to get another boy. Not you ladies here, I only feel that way toward people in my real life. Isn't that mean of me? WTF? I actually have 2 friends who right at this moment are pregnant with a girl after 2 boys and I'm so jealous of them both.
I don't know how to get over this. As much as I LOOOVE my baby, I still feel like it's not fair that everyone else gets at least one girl. Why couldn't I have had ONE? And we can't TTC again. Our marriage is rocky, we don't have any more money, house is too small. Plus I'm sure it would be boy #4.
That's all.
But I'm realizing that I'm not. Every time a friend of mine who has 2 boys, goes on to have a girl for #3, I get SO jealous and depressed. It's weird because I really wouldn't change Nolan into a girl. I love him as a boy. I don't wish he had been a girl I don't think. But I want everyone who has 2 boys and is trying for a girl, to get another boy. Not you ladies here, I only feel that way toward people in my real life. Isn't that mean of me? WTF? I actually have 2 friends who right at this moment are pregnant with a girl after 2 boys and I'm so jealous of them both.
I don't know how to get over this. As much as I LOOOVE my baby, I still feel like it's not fair that everyone else gets at least one girl. Why couldn't I have had ONE? And we can't TTC again. Our marriage is rocky, we don't have any more money, house is too small. Plus I'm sure it would be boy #4.
That's all.