BV0812
November 18th, 2013, 09:09 PM
Hello Everyone
I am new here, I have two perfect little boys. 5.5 years and 19 months. Me and my DH have dreamed of having a daughter since we first meet 10 years ago. During my first pregnancy I was told my son was a girl from week 18-22. I bonded with that "little girl" I chose a name for her, bought her pretty things, talked to her and made her promises. When I was told at 23 weeks that "she' was a boy my heart broke a little but I just new our next baby would be a girl. Fast forward 4 years and 16 weeks and my second sons ultrasound reviled clear as day that he two would be joining team blue. My heart split in half. I was devastated. It took everything I had to not start bawling in the ultrasound room. When I got home the tears started and did not stop for weeks. I LOVE my son's. I would not trade them for the world. But that little girl I once dreamed of is getting harder and harder to see. My DH only wants three children. I have one chance left....... As this huge lump rises up in my chest I have to get this out. Today we took the first step towards PDG IVF and where halted in our tracks. Our insurance covers a mere $2000 and we are looking at $25,000-$30,000. There is no way we can afford that. Sigh = (( Just needed to get this out, pick up the pieces and figure out how to move on.
I am new here, I have two perfect little boys. 5.5 years and 19 months. Me and my DH have dreamed of having a daughter since we first meet 10 years ago. During my first pregnancy I was told my son was a girl from week 18-22. I bonded with that "little girl" I chose a name for her, bought her pretty things, talked to her and made her promises. When I was told at 23 weeks that "she' was a boy my heart broke a little but I just new our next baby would be a girl. Fast forward 4 years and 16 weeks and my second sons ultrasound reviled clear as day that he two would be joining team blue. My heart split in half. I was devastated. It took everything I had to not start bawling in the ultrasound room. When I got home the tears started and did not stop for weeks. I LOVE my son's. I would not trade them for the world. But that little girl I once dreamed of is getting harder and harder to see. My DH only wants three children. I have one chance left....... As this huge lump rises up in my chest I have to get this out. Today we took the first step towards PDG IVF and where halted in our tracks. Our insurance covers a mere $2000 and we are looking at $25,000-$30,000. There is no way we can afford that. Sigh = (( Just needed to get this out, pick up the pieces and figure out how to move on.