I ache for her

[anothercuppa]

I feel GD as a physical ache - a pull - a longing

Not for the outfits, or toys, but the experiences, the conversations, the friendship, the lessons

My DH doesn't get it - he's only just just persuaded to have one last baby, he'd be perfectly happy with just our boys

I don't want a baby girl doll, I want a daughter, a friend, a woman - the whole person

She's called Emmeline - I can see her in my dreams and I ache for her

[pebmcpd7]

Me too, but I am coming round to the fact that it may never happen for me :(

[mommymachine]

Please never give up hope.

[Flowergirl]

I'm there too girls. She is real and I have shed many tears for her. I can picture my little girl, I already have half a wardrobe full of clothes for her. She has a name and my son's already talk about her. I can't imagine our lives without my little darling in it. I really hope and pray that she is God's plan for our family (and for yours too) x

[anothercuppa]

I'm scared to try, because I feel like the devastation in almost inevitable

But I've never wanted anything more, I just really want to meet her

It's comforting to know I'm not alone and crazy - thanks for the replies x

[Petal]

You're certainly not alone!!! I really hope we all get our girls x

[ThreeMenAndALAdy]

I have a girl, and 4 boys. My dd is 4 years old. Once I got her I wanted to give her a sister. She got 2 more brothers instead. My dh had a vasectomy in September. My youngest is almost 9 months and the ache to give her a sister, and myself another daughter is getting stronger by the day. It won't happen for me, but it can and hopefully will for all of you. I wish you all the best.

[atomic sagebrush]

when they put my daughter in my arms I really felt like I recognized her and had seen her in my dreams. It felt like "oh there you are, I've been waiting for you!" I hope that you guys get your daughters!!!

[anothercuppa]

Thanks Atomic, that would be my deepest wish recognised

I'm looking forward to seeing my personalised sway when it's done, as I feel like I don't trust myself to do anything right anymore and I need the reassurance so much. I can't talk to anyone in real life apart from my husband, and I think I'm treading a fine line between broody and mental unhinged!!!

I bought a beautiful hanging 'E' for her bedroom wall - it's under my bed and everyday when I have a moment alone I take it out and look at it. I worry sometimes that I'm jinxing myself but I see her so clearly in my mind that I can't help but invest in my dream

[luckyfourleafclover]

Another - you are not alone, I feel it too just as you describe.

I hope all our dreams come true.

x

[iluvmy4sons]

I hope you all get to experience having a daughter. I felt the same was as atomic.

[Prayingpink]

This all made me tear up. I try to explain it to my husband why it's so important to me and i feel like he looks at me like I'm insane. I don't think he really got how badly I long for a daughter til I started my sway. My whole life style has changed. I'm terrible with dieting and give up easily and am so bad about taking supplants. But since I so desperately what to hold my daughter in my arms I am sticking to this and have been for over a month. I'm willing to try anything if it means I might meet my baby girl one day. I do realize though that Gods plan is not always our own so I'm trying to relax and just do what I can to increase my chance of receiving such a beautiful gift.

[1+2+3boys]

What a beautiful name. I hope you get to have her xo

[Adia]

What a beautiful name. I hope you get to have her xo

Hey you! Where have you been? I've missed seeing you around here!

[1+2+3boys]

Hey you! Where have you been? I've missed seeing you around here!

I have been taking some time off from the website so I can try not to think about wanting a daughter so much. At the momment it looks like number 4 wont be able to happen as I had planned due to not being able to afford it. In the mean time I find it easier to act like I am done and to try to come to terms with it rather than using so much energy hoping. I have mostly recovered from Post natal Depression but need to avoid triggers if I am having a hard time with life like not enough sleep and struggling with housework etc!

Nice to know I was missed! How have you been? Are you pregnant!?

[anothercuppa]

So.... I decided to buy some gorgeous pale pink paint to restore an old side table. It looks beautiful. If anyone asks I can pretend it's for the corner of my bedroom when I get a new TV, but really it's for her bedroom.

I thought I could get away with it. But while my husband is away on business for a few weeks I seem to have been gripped by the obsession. I think it's because the table turned out so beautifully, I just thought - ahhh, I'll just take advantage of the end of the sales and get a few bits.

I'm now about half way to having a full on girl's nursery room.

I feel like a CRAZY PERSON. I am a crazy person!!!!

I've filled the room with loads of drying laundry so you can't see too much, and if anyone visits I can say, oh don't go in there it's just storage and laundry right now.

But really - I've opened the floodgates and gone a bit mad. And now I know that if my spring sway goes blue, I'll crash even harder.

But I can't bear to hide it away. It's her room now...

(Also I think I have toothache from the damn skittles on this LE diet :tissue: )

[anothercuppa]

(Posted just so you know that there are people WAY more unhinged - I think you sound way more in control than me!!!!!)

[zibibbogirl]

My advice to everybody waiting is to remember that you are just waiting. Believe she is coming, buy her things, name her, visualise her. I know some of you may be scared to do that but I honestly think it helps. And when she does arrive it will be exactly as you imagined, just like Atomic says. My DD feels like she has always been with us because I made room for her in our lives (not a physical bedroom, but in every other way). If you build it, she will come.

[Mumof3boysAUSTRALIA]

I am so glad I am not alone. I long for the day my husbands says 'yes' we can go HT, but its not likely to ever happen. I just hope time is on my side as I am only 30...

[Abifasc]

I feel the same way. I hope we both get our daughters!