Sp4rkl3s
October 23rd, 2014, 05:31 AM
I thought I had Ovulated early this month after having a positive digital OPK on CD 10.
I didn't carry on using OPKs, however, yesterday, on CD 17, I decided to check and got a definite positive on two brands. Positive again today.
We had DTD the day before and 4 days before.
I had a bad few days on the diet, a super high calorie and fat day and 2 days with breakfast and snacks, thinking it was after ovulation.
I hate how unpredictable all of this is and feeling like I'm not in control.
Every month I worry that if I finally get my BFP I will have made mistakes or not done enough, almost hoping for a BFN so I can do better next month.
Then when I do get a BFN, of course I'm disappointed because I really really want to be pregnant and have a baby.
Just feeling frustrated and a bit fed up.
I didn't carry on using OPKs, however, yesterday, on CD 17, I decided to check and got a definite positive on two brands. Positive again today.
We had DTD the day before and 4 days before.
I had a bad few days on the diet, a super high calorie and fat day and 2 days with breakfast and snacks, thinking it was after ovulation.
I hate how unpredictable all of this is and feeling like I'm not in control.
Every month I worry that if I finally get my BFP I will have made mistakes or not done enough, almost hoping for a BFN so I can do better next month.
Then when I do get a BFN, of course I'm disappointed because I really really want to be pregnant and have a baby.
Just feeling frustrated and a bit fed up.