Deux Bleus
July 24th, 2011, 07:31 AM
I am the happy and proud Mother of two gorgeous boys. I love them to bits and wouldnt change them for the world.
As much as I love my sons, I am 'obsessed' with having a daughter :(
I didn't really have Gender desire with my first DS and when I fell pg the second time around, I wasnt too fussed either way as ideally one of each would have been awesome but a brother for DS1 was too cute to resist.
When I found out that DS2 was another boy, I had a slight disappointment - and not for him, but for the baby girl I didnt get.
My issue is that I am constantly surrounded my people that remind me of the fact that I don't have a girl. They are forever asking me; "are you going to try for a girl?" Or they pity me when I say I have 2 DS.
Ive always wanted 3+ kids but now Im afraid to get pregnant again partly because of all the pressure I am going to be put under but also cause Im afraid that I can't 'handle' having another DS?!
Today I was discussing the idea of having more children with friends and family and when I mentioned that having 3 boys looks fun and cool and something I often think about (Im pretty convinced that will be my family), everyone started saying: "Yes! You will have 3 boys", "I cant see you with a girl" etc.
I instantly got a really anxious feeling after this, and have had one since.
Its like any idea/dream of me finally getting my baby girl has been taken away from me and I kind of feel really sad and let down.
I guess the thought of me getting a girl after 2 DS is more than likely just going to be a thought and maybe I just need to grasp the idea that it wont ever be... I just dont know how to let it go and not think about it all the time. :sad:
As much as I love my sons, I am 'obsessed' with having a daughter :(
I didn't really have Gender desire with my first DS and when I fell pg the second time around, I wasnt too fussed either way as ideally one of each would have been awesome but a brother for DS1 was too cute to resist.
When I found out that DS2 was another boy, I had a slight disappointment - and not for him, but for the baby girl I didnt get.
My issue is that I am constantly surrounded my people that remind me of the fact that I don't have a girl. They are forever asking me; "are you going to try for a girl?" Or they pity me when I say I have 2 DS.
Ive always wanted 3+ kids but now Im afraid to get pregnant again partly because of all the pressure I am going to be put under but also cause Im afraid that I can't 'handle' having another DS?!
Today I was discussing the idea of having more children with friends and family and when I mentioned that having 3 boys looks fun and cool and something I often think about (Im pretty convinced that will be my family), everyone started saying: "Yes! You will have 3 boys", "I cant see you with a girl" etc.
I instantly got a really anxious feeling after this, and have had one since.
Its like any idea/dream of me finally getting my baby girl has been taken away from me and I kind of feel really sad and let down.
I guess the thought of me getting a girl after 2 DS is more than likely just going to be a thought and maybe I just need to grasp the idea that it wont ever be... I just dont know how to let it go and not think about it all the time. :sad: