Let me introduce myself

[Justine1986]

Hello everybody

It's 3 weeks now that I'm reading on this website, and I've noticed, I haven't introduced myself yet.
So let's take a few minutes.

I'm 28 years old, and will be 29 this summer.
I have a lovely husband, he's 35. We live in Europe in a nice city, close to the beach.

I have 4 little boys, and I love them with all my heart! They are so adorable.
My 3 oldest boys are from a different daddy, our third boy was only 2 months old when he left us.
It was a terrible time, but since I met my big love in 2012, the sun is even shining brighter than before!
In 2013 we've welcomed a little baby of our own... And everybody told me it will certainly be a girl! With no doubt!
But it wasn't.. We've welcomed another cute little boy. For that reason, we wrote on his birth announcement:
"Boys are so much fun, so we thought, let's take another one!" But I can't count the times, people asked me after his birth
"didn't you prefer having a girl?"

I don't think I need to describe how much I'm dreaming of having a little baby girl.
My 3 oldest son's dad, has had last year also a child with his girlfriend.. And guess what... It's a girl!
I deleted him and his girlfriend from my Facebook, It was hurting so much to see that little cute baby girl,
and to see that after all the hurt he did to me, he was now having a girl, and he knew how much I was
dreaming of a girl... So I guess he and his girlfriend were overjoyed that they've welcomed a girl, and I didn't...

I didn't even knew websites like these existed, so a new world opened for me, and my heart made a little jump!
So overwhelmed by all the info, I'm trying to figure out how and where to begin on our journey!

I've contacted a doctor over here, but he only works together with the clinic in Amman, Jordan.
But I'm just too scared to fly to Jordan, it's next to Syria, and we all know it's not safe over there..
Normally he also worked with Czech, but not anymore... He wrote in his email they only help people
with PGD for medical reasons.. :s
Monday I can call this doctor again, and I hope so much that he can or is willing to guide us in a journey to Czech...
I've putted all my hope on him, on going to Czech, but since he wrote me he doensn't longer work with hem,
I'm so anxious.
As my 4 pregnancies went smoothly, I often think, what am I thinking of going into IVF, but it's the only
way of letting our dream come true, having a daughter...

And it feels great that I'm not the only one suffering these
doubts, and trying to let our dream come true. :owl:

[Lizand3Bs]

Welcome and good luck !!!

[mommymachine]

I truly hope you get your baby girl!

[Jany1025]

Welcome! There has been great results with clinic R in Czech BUT be very careful about mentioning gender selection. I don't want you to ruin any chance (or anyone else) for PGD for your girl.

Here is a thread to follow and ask how to go about cycling there!

http://genderdreaming.com/forum/international-ht-family-balancing/47077-cycling-clinic-r-czech-2015-a.html

Best of Luck!

[atomic sagebrush]

Welcome and good luck! Your post put a smile on my face. :) I also have 4 boys and I wish you all the luck in the world for your IVF!

[Justine1986]

Welcome! There has been great results with clinic R in Czech BUT be very careful about mentioning gender selection. I don't want you to ruin any chance (or anyone else) for PGD for your girl.

Here is a thread to follow and ask how to go about cycling there!

http://genderdreaming.com/forum/international-ht-family-balancing/47077-cycling-clinic-r-czech-2015-a.html

Best of Luck!

I know the thread.. I've already read all the pages.. Also from the first part... ;-)
But still doubting a lot, just because indeed it's illegal, it feels like there's a wall in front of us...
But we are convinced to take the step, without doubts.. My husband even said he would go to Jordan,
he would do whatever is needed... But I'm too scared to go over there..

Thank you all girls!

[1+2+3boys]

Welcome and I wish you the best of luck in getting your daughter :)

[Justine1986]

Thank you

I hope your dream can also come true 1+2+3boys. Are you planning on going on HT?

Good luck!

[BrightSky]

Welcome and good luck!! People are so insensitive (usually ppl with both genders I might add!) i have one boy and even now getting comments like 'you will have to have a little girl next' .. I just bite my lip and smile and reply 'oh course, I would love that, but it's out of my control' .. Well to a certain degree anyway ��

[Justine1986]

Thank you..
I always answer to those people that I am perfectly happy with my boys..but inside it just hurts!

Tonight I've received a text message from my SIL, she is pregnant, and she let me know that she's having a scan wednesday and she will then know the gender of their baby.... I 'm soooooo nervous... She said she will probably tell me (that s the first time she said this) they already have 2 boys...

I 'm so nervous (and I feel really stupid because of that)..but I just want to know.. I'm so scared that she will have a girl and I don't..

[emmake]

Justine, if I may give you some good advise: don't even think of going to Jordan and don't let you monitor by this doctor you have in mind, I know well who you're talking about, some girls here have a bad experience with him and Jordan success rates are nihil.

[Justine1986]

Oh really Emmake?
Feeling bad now :(, because I was planned to call him this afternoon...
He wrote me an email and said I could call him today past 3 o'clock.
I wanted to ask him if it's possible to guide me with Czech, he used to do this normally.

I'm just so anxious that I won't find a doctor over here to do the bloodtests, ultrasounds,
follow-up for the medications.
Is there a doctor that you might recommend to me Emmake?

Or somebody else who can recommend a doctor from Belgium?
I'm just too scared to talk about this with my own gynecologist,
I know her for many years now and I know/feel what is negotiable and what isn't.

Is it "normal" that I'm even dreaming about this website and HT?
In my dreams I'm already pregnant :o... What a disappoinment when I wake up,
but also still a loooooong way to go! And I want to do this for sure!

Just so glad that I can ventilate to my husband, it seems that he wants it just as much as I do.
But he's always relaxt and I'm not (I want everything to happen very fast and I know it doesn't work like that in this journey).

[emmake]

Justine, I'll pm you later on today. I understand that you'll not be able to cycle very shortly, so you have plenty of time to prepare.

[Justine1986]

I just called that doctor.
He said that in Czech they no longer accept woman without
fertility problems and under the age of 35.

He said this is since the 1 of January this year.
He asked me to come over for a consultation, so he can give me
Information about the clinic in Jordan, where he,
as he said, believes in for 100%...

So if I may believe him, there is no chance for me on going to Czech.. :s

[Justine1986]

I mean also they do not longer accept woman/couples
without medical problems or diseases that can be given to the baby.
Srry for the bad explanation

[emmake]

Justine, you do what you want but if i were you i would not even contact him as he is giving you very misleading info, it is his strategy as he probably has some financial reasons why he prefers Jordan, i already made it clear to you, i know several ladies who lost a lot of time and money with him without any success.

[Justine1986]

I know Emmake, I won't go to Jordan! I do not have a good feeling with it, I can't explain...
It's just not feeling right.

I don't know it for now.. I'm a bit disappointed, it's just the beginning and I feel already
that this will be a tough journey. (you know what it is, so sorry if I sound nugatory)
But I want to reach my goal, and I will do anything what is necessary.

When you have a minute, could you please send me a pm? Only when possible he!
Thanks a lot for your time! Really appreciate it!

[1+2+3boys]

Yes I plan on HT for our 4th and final child. We live in New Zealand and DP is German and his family live in Berlin which is a train ride away from the main Czech clinic so it makes sense to go there on the side when we manage to save enough money to visit. It is quite a way off, I wouldn't think this year is possible but I do need a break from children I suppose before having more sleepless nights with baby. We can't really afford HT and it seems like an impossible dream but I think now that I know that it exists, I need to persue it because I feel such a great sadness over not having a daughter that I do not feel will ever totally go away. I'd love a 4th boy too but I'd have to give up on my dream then and I am not prepared to risk it at this stage. I only wanted 3 children and am only just managing with them and I don't want to put that extra pressure of 4 kids on myself mentally, physically and financially unless I can garuntee it is my daughter so as far as I see it, I have no other choice expect to try and accept thing the way they are but I am not ready to do that yet.

I had not heard about Cz no longer accepting under 35s with no fertility problems. That would rule me out. Have you mentioned it to the ladies in the the cycling at Cz thread 2015? I would ultimately prefer to go to HRC but that would mean waiting at least another 2 years on top of what we already planned to save more money and the thought of waiting for my daughter so long hurts. The sooner the better in regards to success too but luckily time is on my side being only in my late 20s.

It's all so hard isn't it!
For now I just have to try and focus on life as it is. I really need to not long on here so much until I am closer to my journey but I love this forem!

[The Anchor]

Welcome Justine! I hope you get your girl :)

[1+2+3boys]

OMG, sorry for all the typos! I asked in the Cz thread and appariently that was always the way but you just need to know how to approach the clinic. Seems all too hard. I am starting to think about swaying again. I thought I was done with the changing my mind between the two options

[Justine1986]

Have you already decided 1+2+3?

I'm feeling really sad at the moment, my SIL told me this morning, they are having a girl, after 2 boys...
I'm crying for hours now...
Just can't believe it, I was convinced they would have another boy.... but I'm always wrong, just because
I don't understand how they can have a daughter that simple...

Hope to feel better soon, pffff

[Anita@yahoo]

Hi I am in the same boat. Having two lovely baby girls healthy and desperate for a baby boy. Even I am looking for gender selection process with ivf in Jordan.
Which hospital are you going?

[Anita@yahoo]

Please don't feel bad you too will be blessed.