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[bluedreams]

Hello Everyone. I haven’t been on this site for about 3 years but still kept my membership. I’ve been busy raising my 2 DD in the meantime. I’ve decided that I didn’t want to have a 3rd child because both my daughters are a handful, I’m in my late 30s and financially it would be tough. The main reason is I don’t want to take the chance of having 3 DD since I had bad GD when I found out I was having DD2. Anyway I’ve been snooping around this website for a while and feel I have to write something.

I found out I was pregnant in January – an oops pregnancy. I was almost depressed that I was pregnant because I really didn’t want a 3rd child and I definitely didn’t want a 3rd girl. After a while I started accepting this pregnancy but was still scared about having 3 kids. This week (week 10) I found out that the embryo wasn’t forming and there is no heartbeat. It was basically an empty sac. I am scheduled for a D& C this week. I thought the news wouldn’t bother me so much since I didn’t want to be pregnant in the first place but I was heartbroken. I cried for 3 days. This whole experience messed with my head. I had all my pregnancy symptoms and bloodwork was fine and then found out about this. This was a mind game. I even avoided a family party this weekend because people are constantly asking us if we are going to try for another one. I couldn’t handle that.

So my DH and I talked about trying again. I think I do want to try again after this experience. But, if I do try I am most likely going to purchase a personal plan to sway for a boy. I feel if I am going to try again at least let me try to sway and see what happens. After all of this I still want a boy. I should just want a healthy pregnancy, right? I feel horrible about that. I just want to get through this procedure and move on quickly since this experience has been very painful. I hope it gets better. Just wanted to get all of this off my chest since I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this.

[bluebonnet22]

I'm so sorry for your loss and I wish you all the best with your sway!

[Summerstown]

So sorry for your loss xx

[atomic sagebrush]

HI and welcome back, I'm so sorry for your loss. Huge hugs to you.

[foxymrsg]

Welcome back I am so sorry for your loss.

[True Blue]

Welcome back bluedreams, I'm so very sorry for your loss :sadflwr:

Good Luck with your future pregnancy and sway!!

[mommymachine]

I am so sorry for your loss.

[laVieEnRose]

Im so sorry for your loss. This is the place you can be sure to be supported and comforted. Welcome back and best of luck xxx

[bluedreams]

Thank you for all of your support and wish everyone luck on their sway.

[1+2+3boys]

Welcome back. I'm sorry to hear of your loss and how it happened. I had a MC just like that too and it is a shock and messes with your brain. I really hope you can get pregnant with a healthy boy. Goodluck. I think it is still normal to want your DG even though a healthy pregnancy is really important too after a loss. I was lucky to have healthy twins on board next time but I still hoped so bad that one would be my much longed for girl. There is no reason that you can not have both! I didn't get to sway but you will have that chance and there are great results with the sways here lately, especially the blue ones. :)

[bluedreams]

Thanks 1+2+3. It is a very tough thing to go through.
Are you doing HT for your little girl? When I was pregnant with DD2 I was totally for that to get a boy but now it's probably out of the question. We definitely don't have the finances for that. I would see the tough journey these women go through and I don't think I can handle that. I give these women a lot of credit. But it's great to see the successes. Good luck with getting your little girl.

[kitkat18]

I'm so sorry for your loss bluedreams, that is so hard whether an oops or planned.You have come back to the right place for natural swaying. Very supportive and blue success is high X

[1+2+3boys]

Thanks 1+2+3. It is a very tough thing to go through.
Are you doing HT for your little girl? When I was pregnant with DD2 I was totally for that to get a boy but now it's probably out of the question. We definitely don't have the finances for that. I would see the tough journey these women go through and I don't think I can handle that. I give these women a lot of credit. But it's great to see the successes. Good luck with getting your little girl.

It is very scary isn't it. Finances make it not possible for at least a couple of years and I do worry about it not working but I'm going over my number for this child and only doing it because I want a girl and would rather have a gender garuntee and wait for her than have a whole extra child before her splitting my time between children into more fragments and costing even more. I know what I can handle and would have to give up if my sway didn't work. I'd so rather sway though. If I were going for number three instead of four I so would be. Luckily I have time on my side for HT.

[longtofeelcomplete]

I am so sorry for your loss. Personally I think that your feelings and emotions are absolutely normal, please don't stress about it. I had a similiar situation wanting a DD after 3 DS, and although my loss was another DS did need time to get over it.

[bluedreams]

It is very scary isn't it. Finances make it not possible for at least a couple of years and I do worry about it not working but I'm going over my number for this child and only doing it because I want a girl and would rather have a gender garuntee and wait for her than have a whole extra child before her splitting my time between children into more fragments and costing even more. I know what I can handle and would have to give up if my sway didn't work. I'd so rather sway though. If I were going for number three instead of four I so would be. Luckily I have time on my side for HT.

That's just it. Time isn't on my side and I don't want to have to go through so many cycles. I figure I will just sway because I need to do something instead of just relying on chance. How long after the M/C until you started trying again?

[Jenneilbluebell]

hi hun sending huge hugs on your loss xxxxx

[The Anchor]

Oh no blue, I'm so sorry. HUGE HUGS.

[2boysJustOneGirl]

Don't feel bad. I felt the same way after my loss- the heart wants what it wants and having a loss doesn't discredit feelings about the sex of the baby. I know ppl who are have been deemed infertile state their preference for a specific gender- and I know ppl who had difficulty conceiving express gender disappointment. These things are separate from each other. If it was all about a healthy baby, women wouldn't have birth trauma or gender disappointment. We are only human.


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[bluedreams]

Don't feel bad. I felt the same way after my loss- the heart wants what it wants and having a loss doesn't discredit feelings about the sex of the baby. I know ppl who are have been deemed infertile state their preference for a specific gender- and I know ppl who had difficulty conceiving express gender disappointment. These things are separate from each other. If it was all about a healthy baby, women wouldn't have birth trauma or gender disappointment. We are only human.


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Thank you. Also congrats on your pregnancy. When are you due? I hope it's your girl. Also sorry for your loss.

[gizmo77]

I'm so sorry for ur loss. Good luck in swaying for ur boy!

[bluedreams]

I want to thank everyone again for their support. This week I postponed my D&C for this Friday because I chose to take the medication to expedite the miscarriage. I was afraid of the D&C since I never had surgery before. So I went through the miscarriage on my own and this morning after the ultrasound they told me I didn't have to do the procedure since I passed everything. I was relieved about that. That's one thing that made me happy in this whole situation.

[essnce629]

So sorry about your loss Bluedreams, but I'm glad you didn't end up needing the D&C. Good luck on your sway next time. (((HUGS)))

[2boysJustOneGirl]

Thank you. Also congrats on your pregnancy. When are you due? I hope it's your girl. Also sorry for your loss.

Thanks. I am due end of October, almost 9 weeks now.


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[bluedreams]

Thanks. I am due end of October, almost 9 weeks now.


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Congrats! Happy and a Healthy 9 months!

[atomic sagebrush]

Thinking of you. ((((hugs))))