Twointow83's TTC thread- Rainbow baby in pink plz ;)

[twointow83]

It had to happen eventually. At least the limbo is over. It's been a long, hard, gut wrenching ride and as much as it sucks that this pregnancy played out the way it did and that it's over, at least we can begin to heal emotionally, mentally and physically instead of living in an indefinite limbo.

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[twointow83]

Btw, we will not be TTC this year. After 2 D&Cs in just a few months, we want to give my body time to recover and we want to enjoy the holidays as much as we can without stressing about TTC or pregnancy. Also, the words traumatic and heartbreaking pretty much sum up the last month and we need time to heal mentally and emotionally.

The jury is still out on whether we will do ANYTHING to sway or if we will be focusing on setting us up for the healthiest preg possible and nothing more. I'm thinking maybe clomid, for shorter cycles (maybe...?) and that's it but we need to worry about healing before worrying about or making any final decisions about all that.

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[Pbn3]

Wishing you the best two and hope to see you back here next year with a happy and healthy pregnancy xxoo

[twointow83]

Wishing you the best two and hope to see you back here next year with a happy and healthy pregnancy xxoo

Hoping you are cooking your healthy pink bean by then ;)

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[purple]

I'm glad the limbo is over for you Two. I'm also sorry you had to be put through such a traumatic experience. I hope the break from ttcing and the holiday period helps you heal emotionally and physically xx.

[netti02]

Sounds like a good plan two. Wish you all the best xxx

Mum to 4 Boys awaiting her Princess

[Boyzmommy]

Wish u all the best two. Sounds like a good plan to me. Heal enjoy ur holidays and make a decision


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[Kittybear]

So sorry for your loss. X

[twointow83]

Well. It's done. Was in labor most of yesterday and all night. Passed the baby (placenta, sac and all) this morning. Now to figure out what to do with it all...

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[TaytumJ]

I'm so, so sorry you're going through all of this Two. I know there's nothing ant of us could say or do to make the pain go away, but know I've been thinking of you and your family a lot. I hope you guys can enjoy your time together the next few months and when you are ready I hope you'll let us continue to follow your journey! ❤️

[twointow83]

It's okay... well, it is what it is, ykwim.... I'm glad to be out of limbo at least. And oddly I feel at peace... about how the actual loss played out at least. I didn't flush my baby which was my biggest fear. So now we can do something special to honor his or her memory. Baby is too small to cremate but thinking about buying a decorative urn (something that could pass as a knick knack) and "bury" baby in it with a little dirt. I won't just put the baby in the ground(not that there is anything wrong with that... just my anxieties would never let me do it) and that way Avery gets his/her place to rest in peace and stays with us no matter how many times we move (Not that we plan to but you never know what the future holds).

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[Foxcubblue]

Two, I'm so sorry all this has happened to you. Prayers for you and your family. When our little smudge passed three months ago we bought a pot tree and buried him / her under it and placed the pot by the front door. We wrapped the remains in one of the muslin cloths I have used to feed the girls (that they had drawn kisses all over) and put some rose buds in, then popped it at the bottom of the pot. It was a lovely closure activity that we all did together and now I get to think of him / her every time I pass and my girls love watering the tree! I too am absolutely terrible with plants and worry about something happening to the tree, but I figured a tree is easier to keep alive than a plant! We also intentionally chose a pot tree so we take it with us if we move house and also so that if anything did happen to the tree we'd still have the pot and soil containing smudge so could in theory plant another tree in the pot. It should flower with white blossoms in the spring when smudge should have been born. Sending hugs and prayers x

[Foxcubblue]

Sorry, posted at the same time as you! I think your urn idea sounds lovely.

[twointow83]

Two, I'm so sorry all this has happened to you. Prayers for you and your family. When our little smudge passed three months ago we bought a pot tree and buried him / her under it and placed the pot by the front door. We wrapped the remains in one of the muslin cloths I have used to feed the girls (that they had drawn kisses all over) and put some rose buds in, then popped it at the bottom of the pot. It was a lovely closure activity that we all did together and now I get to think of him / her every time I pass and my girls love watering the tree! I too am absolutely terrible with plants and worry about something happening to the tree, but I figured a tree is easier to keep alive than a plant! We also intentionally chose a pot tree so we take it with us if we move house and also so that if anything did happen to the tree we'd still have the pot and soil containing smudge so could in theory plant another tree in the pot. It should flower with white blossoms in the spring when smudge should have been born. Sending hugs and prayers x
That sounds very sweet. We planted a flower in kendal's (the DD we lost) memory and it died so I just can't go with a living thing type of burial. I just about killed me watching to die. It was a perennial so we are hoping it sprouts again next year. If I know it'll come back each year it won't be so hard to watch it go. She isn't buried with it. Just some some letters DH, the kids and I wrote to her. The fact it died as soon as it was put in the ground worries me that it won't come back though :(

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[goodmom]

Oh... just came across your post two ... m so sorry to hear tht :( ...hugsx ...

[mammacass]

Thinking of you and your family two and sending lots of healing vibes your way xx


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[Pbn3]

Two I think your urn idea is lovely. Thinking of you and family xxoo

[Quinn31]

I'm thinking of you too. So sorry for your loss.

[hopper]

You are in my thoughts a lot two, really like your idea with the urn hun. I hope it helps you find peace in all of this. Sending massive hugs xxx

[twointow83]

Just updating :) We've passed the 90 mark since the methotrexate disaster and I know we had a lot of decision to be made. We've decided to not sway. We won't be using any frequency limits, won't be avoiding vitamins, etc. Basically we want to get pregnant as healthfully as possible and preferably quickly. We have been trying to have a baby for nearly a year and no matter the outcome we want it to happen sooner than later. If we experience another loss we want to put this part of our lives behind us, grateful for what we have, accepting that our family is complete and no longer seeking another pregnancy. If, God willing, we are able to carry to term with a healthy baby we want to start that part of our life and, again, be done with our baby making days. If I swayed and didn't do EVERYTHING in my power to have as healthy of a TTC and pregnancy journey as possible and the worst happens I'd never be able to forgive myself and always wonder what if. This is not to say that swaying is unhealthy but components of it feel unsafe FOR US, given our history and the fact that this is our last shot. Also, our dream of a baby girl is nothing next to our current dream of a healthy child, regardless of gender.

Anyway, I will be taking clomid as my doctor insists that this really is the better option for us (and if it happens to sway- GREAT!). I am in the last days of my current cycle and will be picking up my script tomorrow and I'll be taking it 3-7 just like last time. My first 2 cycles will be unmonitored since my doctor is confident that I react well to my current dosage as all my clomid cycles were monitored last time. However, if I don't get preg by then, my 3rd cycle will be a monitored cycle.

So, that's the 4-1-1 on us :fingers::pray:

[netti02]

All the best two xxx

Mum to 4 Boys awaiting her Princess

[covered in blue]

So lovely to hear from you two! I've been thinking about you often. All the best for a speedy conception and healthy baby xx

[purple]

Good to hear from you two. I hope 2016 is a much better year for you and you have a pink or blue bundle in the making very soon!

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[mammacass]

Great to hear from you two, wishing you all the best xx


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[TaytumJ]

I was just thinking of you! So happy you and DH have made great decisions on what's best for your family and I'll be glad to see you back! Even without swaying, I know we'd all love for you to update us on your journey since I know I felt so apart of it for so long.

Lots of love and prayers for a healthy sticky bean, regardless of gender! [emoji166][emoji170]


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[twointow83]

Thanks for the well wishes everyone! :HH:

CIB & Taytum- So glad to see your beans are still snuggled in tight!!

Taytum- Do you know what you are having yet?? I can't recall if you were planning to find out or not.

[XXforhubby]

I'm so glad to get an update on you! I wish you a fast conception and a healthy, sweet baby!


DS1[emoji125]🏼, DS2[emoji577], DS3[emoji170][emoji577][emoji843][emoji602][emoji170]

[essnce629]

Thanks for the update Two!!! FX that your strong healthy rainbow baby is just around the corner! Fingers crossed for you!

[Pbn3]

Good to see you back [emoji6] xxoo

[TaytumJ]

Taytum- Do you know what you are having yet?? I can't recall if you were planning to find out or not.

Not finding out! As this pregnancy goes on (and maybe it's the fact that we'll have more after this) I don't have an overwhelming need for this to be a boy. I'm just enjoying it! It's kind of been fun just being able to look at BOTH options! Anatomy scan next week though! [emoji4]



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[ksmom]

I wish you the best of luck twointow! I hope you get your long awaited rainbow baby very soon. :)

[Bee]

I've been thinking about you a lot, two. Prayers for a healthy rainbow baby <3.

[twointow83]

Not finding out! As this pregnancy goes on (and maybe it's the fact that we'll have more after this) I don't have an overwhelming need for this to be a boy. I'm just enjoying it! It's kind of been fun just being able to look at BOTH options! Anatomy scan next week though! [emoji4]



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Aww! I was never able to wait lol. Can't wait till baby is born so we can all find out and see pics :)

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[maidentomother]

I'm so sorry to hear this. You've been through so much. I'm thrilled you'll be starting Clomid this cycle and I hope it does the trick for you. Praying for a healthy baby for you SOON. I think it may well be pink irregardless of swaying, too. Hugs hun.