Sick Of Swaying

[soontobesix]

Just because I have no where else to vent about it... I am so sick of swaying! :hair: I've been doing the diet, supps and drinks and obsessing over this now for 5 months. I know that's hardly anything compared to some of you, but it's really grating on me. I am very blessed and have never had trouble getting pregnant. Two kids were the first try and DD#2 was the second month. So I assumed it would be month 1 or 2 this time as well... WRONG. Last month was a what I'm almost positive was a chemical pregnancy and this month nothing. You'd think not having my BFP would be the hardest part but it's not... I think the part that is the hardest for me is gaining weight. I can not stand it. The diet drives me crazy as it is way more food than I would ever typically eat. I've always been lean and in shape and I feel so fat right now :( It's really doing a number on my self esteem. DH doesn't get it at all. I was in a horrible, rotten mood today and he just completely ignored me. That made it better :mad: Okay so that's my selfish rant. Just had to get it off my chest.

[love being a mummy]

Big hugs to you.
Do you have your sway posted somewhere, maybe some one can have a look and see what could be stopping you from getting pregnant. You might benefit from changing a few things here or there.

[CapricornAquarius]

SoonTB6, I know exactly how you feel, I to was swaying for 5 months and it was driving me bannanas, this is why I started to rethink the whole idea of even having a 3rd child, basically I really was just going to give up, but then on our second attempt it actually happened.

And for some reason I think it was because I didnt use egg white this time and used preseed, maybe egg white was too strong of a PH for my body???

Like LBAM is saying maybe there's something your taking which could be preventing you from conceiving.

[CapricornAquarius]

OMG the weight gain, was the worst part, I to have always been slim and lean, for the first time, I actually had buldges over my jeans, so I know how you feel, it SUCKED.

[TTC5]

I know how you feel!

[Indira]

I know how you feel too, I´m also so sick of this!
This is my fifth attempt as well, boys were conceived on first attempts, for us pink swayers it´s not easy because we have to lower our changes of getting pregnant to sway pink and it´s hard to find the balance between low fertility and not-conceving.
You blue swayers at least can do everything you can to try and get pregnant and then you know that sways blue aswell.
And you can eat all the things that I would kill for right now. And loosing weight on the girl diet isn´t all that good, ok my body is very lean and that´s nice but my face really needs a couple of pounds more to look good, I look very old and tired right now. But I understand what you´re saying, we all just want to go back to our normal eating habits and body figure.
The fact that you need more time now to conceive try to see it as a good sign, your body is obviously out of girl-mode now, just needs a little time to adjust and conceive that little boy. Sending you lots of blue dust, HUGS

[Flava]

OMG I feel the same I put on 25 pounds now! Im so fat a and ugly I hate it!!! Just took a picture yesterday Im on the sofa sitting and I look like some one else!!! We started teh diet in April and did 2 try now got a m/c first and bfn after that.
Now DH said ok we can ttc till Jan. but how big I will be??? I need a bfp fast with a sticky baby!
XXX

[Flava]

And for some reason I think it was because I didnt use egg white this time and used preseed, maybe egg white was too strong of a PH for my body???

wow you know what? i was thinking the same thing! I used ew both times and it did not worked out so we said now we will use preseed no more ew!

[zanacal]

{hugs}, I hope it happens for you soon x

Go Flava, I'm so glad DH has given the go-ahead for more ttc-ing!

[Indira]

Go Flava, I'm so glad DH has given the go-ahead for more ttc-ing!
Oh, did he? I´m very glad about that! Yay Flava, have a little of my blue dust too!

[Flava]

Thanks for blue dust! DH said he don't want me to be sad so we can try but Jan. is the last one. At first I said no I don't want to just because he feel sorry for me but he said no and we try bla bla .he even went to store with me to buy more sups .I really need a bfp asap now!

[Flava]

But I keep my 4 pink heart pic because that is what I have anyway for now!:o

[gizmo77]

i hear ya soon. i have always worked hard to be in shape as i gain weight pretty easily esply with fatty meats and carbs. altho im eating healthier now, im eating more frequently and more good fats. but fat is fat. i felt this exact way you do only after one attempts and being on teh diet about 4 mos. it is very hard. nothing fits. ive been avoiding going out and seeing friends. TONS of ppl have already asked if i was pregnant (bc they are not used to seeing me like this). i mean i feel disgusting. i just wear PJS all day. even my baggy clothes arent baggy anymore when i go out. i hate that there are holidays coming up and i just KNOW ppl will be thinking, oh she s pg but just not saying. i hate it. i hate the WEIGHT gain the MOST. thats why my goal is to just get pg FAST FAST FAST. im sorry :-(

[TTC5]

Gizmo that is me too!!!! :(

[soontobesix]

i hear ya soon. i have always worked hard to be in shape as i gain weight pretty easily esply with fatty meats and carbs. altho im eating healthier now, im eating more frequently and more good fats. but fat is fat. i felt this exact way you do only after one attempts and being on teh diet about 4 mos. it is very hard. nothing fits. ive been avoiding going out and seeing friends. TONS of ppl have already asked if i was pregnant (bc they are not used to seeing me like this). i mean i feel disgusting. i just wear PJS all day. even my baggy clothes arent baggy anymore when i go out. i hate that there are holidays coming up and i just KNOW ppl will be thinking, oh she s pg but just not saying. i hate it. i hate the WEIGHT gain the MOST. thats why my goal is to just get pg FAST FAST FAST. im sorry :-(

I could've written this post myself Gizmo. I'm dreading the holidays for the exact same reason you said. It doesn't help that I have an overly nosy Sister in law that always examines my midsection for signs of pregnancy... I'm not kidding. So here I am much heavier than anyone is used to me and still not pregnant... should be fun! :mad: Ugh! DH told me to go off the diet last night (I've been having extreme mood swings and I've never struggled with moodiness). I don't think he likes the "new" me ;) But I can't just give up after all these months of hard work now!

[soontobesix]

i hear ya soon. i have always worked hard to be in shape as i gain weight pretty easily esply with fatty meats and carbs. altho im eating healthier now, im eating more frequently and more good fats. but fat is fat. i felt this exact way you do only after one attempts and being on teh diet about 4 mos. it is very hard. nothing fits. ive been avoiding going out and seeing friends. TONS of ppl have already asked if i was pregnant (bc they are not used to seeing me like this). i mean i feel disgusting. i just wear PJS all day. even my baggy clothes arent baggy anymore when i go out. i hate that there are holidays coming up and i just KNOW ppl will be thinking, oh she s pg but just not saying. i hate it. i hate the WEIGHT gain the MOST. thats why my goal is to just get pg FAST FAST FAST. im sorry :-(

I could've written this post myself Gizmo. I'm dreading the holidays for the exact same reason you said. It doesn't help that I have an overly nosy Sister in law that always examines my midsection for signs of pregnancy... I'm not kidding. So here I am much heavier than anyone is used to me and still not pregnant... should be fun! :mad: Ugh! DH told me to go off the diet last night (I've been having extreme mood swings and I've never struggled with moodiness). I don't think he likes the "new" me ;) But I can't just give up after all these months of hard work now!

[gizmo77]

i am defly not giving up till i get pg after all this weight gain. i would MUCH rather sway girl!!! but honestly i this point i dont mind a 3rd girl. maybe thats what this diet is REALLY for...to change your mind about the sway and make you realize thegender you have is fine. ;-)
yea everyone will defly be examining my midsection too.
dh is just asking me to cut out one serving of something and that will help. im grateful/lucky he is "putting up" with it for NOW.

[atomic sagebrush]

I"m sorry! I wish I had a magic wand that could fix these struggles for you guys. If I didn't believe with 100% of every fiber in my being that this will help raise your odds of blue significantly, I wouldn't tell you to do it!!!

[atomic sagebrush]

I could've written this post myself Gizmo. I'm dreading the holidays for the exact same reason you said. It doesn't help that I have an overly nosy Sister in law that always examines my midsection for signs of pregnancy... I'm not kidding. So here I am much heavier than anyone is used to me and still not pregnant... should be fun! :mad: Ugh! DH told me to go off the diet last night (I've been having extreme mood swings and I've never struggled with moodiness). I don't think he likes the "new" me ;) But I can't just give up after all these months of hard work now!

Higher T can cause moodiness, so that is actually encouraging. I hate it too though because I know I'm this raging b-- sometimes and it's almost like I can't even control it. :(

[Indira]

maybe thats what this diet is REALLY for...to change your mind about the sway and make you realize thegender you have is fine. ;-) :rofl: so true!

[deaks66]

:rofl: so true!

I think I only learnt that today.

[Zivic-Bubac]

i am defly not giving up till i get pg after all this weight gain.Same here! You know, I have the whole swaying routine worked out and I sort of get used to it :p I'm sure I'll miss the whole swaying thing once I get pg :p
But you're right about gender - lots of thinking and re-thinking makes me feel more and more OK with idea of another girl ( still hoping for a boy of course lol!)