4devochki
December 1st, 2011, 03:22 AM
No one in real life can understand why I'm longing for another child, and a boy. In my environment, to have more than 2, MAYBE 3 kids is seen as lunacy (we have 4), and to favor one gender over another (especially boys over girls) as mentally ill and morally wrong. So I don't share this with anyone. DH doesn't get it and tactfully just avoids responding if I bring it up in moments of despair. I love our 4 girls, and love them more as they grow, but my life at 45 is seeming very finite and I cannot believe it's going to end without me raising the son that I dream of.
Anyway, I've just been feeling very teary and hopeless with this in the last couple of days and wanted to put it out there. Thanks for listening and sharing.
Anyway, I've just been feeling very teary and hopeless with this in the last couple of days and wanted to put it out there. Thanks for listening and sharing.