Nayla
September 22nd, 2021, 06:51 PM
Hi ladies,
Sorry for my English ..
I don’t know if its the best place, but I really need to talk and have some support as there is no-one to whom I can talk about in real life.
I am the happy mother of two boys 10 and 7 years old, and I always wanted a girl. I discovered this forum while pregnant with my second boy (Almost 8 years ago) and was very happy to know that I have a chance to get my girl.
Since then, I committed to LE diet several times and spent all of this years on and off, restricting my self. But each time, at the end of the 3 months of commitment …. Some thing happens (unplanned travel, sickness, new job, pandemic …) and all the project is postponed.
The last thing was the most overwhelming event as I had a suspected breast cancer days before the first attempt, and it took me more than six month to go through all the process and have a lumpectomy.
While waiting for the diagnosis, I felt stupid for loosing all this time trying to perfectionate my swaying and waiting for the best time, So I decided to TTC immediately once I am reassured about my health … and now that I am reassured, I don’t feel ready to TTC and look at all this 8 years and all the efforts I spent, I think it’s stupid to finally try without sways … but what if I sway and another think happens …
It may sound silly but I really cannot go throw all the process to finally not be able try, each time I planed and dreamed about all the details, which month I will get pregnant, when will I give birth, how old my boys will be … I feel tired.
Sorry for my English ..
I don’t know if its the best place, but I really need to talk and have some support as there is no-one to whom I can talk about in real life.
I am the happy mother of two boys 10 and 7 years old, and I always wanted a girl. I discovered this forum while pregnant with my second boy (Almost 8 years ago) and was very happy to know that I have a chance to get my girl.
Since then, I committed to LE diet several times and spent all of this years on and off, restricting my self. But each time, at the end of the 3 months of commitment …. Some thing happens (unplanned travel, sickness, new job, pandemic …) and all the project is postponed.
The last thing was the most overwhelming event as I had a suspected breast cancer days before the first attempt, and it took me more than six month to go through all the process and have a lumpectomy.
While waiting for the diagnosis, I felt stupid for loosing all this time trying to perfectionate my swaying and waiting for the best time, So I decided to TTC immediately once I am reassured about my health … and now that I am reassured, I don’t feel ready to TTC and look at all this 8 years and all the efforts I spent, I think it’s stupid to finally try without sways … but what if I sway and another think happens …
It may sound silly but I really cannot go throw all the process to finally not be able try, each time I planed and dreamed about all the details, which month I will get pregnant, when will I give birth, how old my boys will be … I feel tired.