Colourmepink
February 7th, 2012, 03:44 AM
Today I completely and utterly hit rock bottom. I allowed my gd in all it's ugliness out in front of my partner and children. I just wish I could take it all back.
My son was sharing his performance from school he and the others in his group made up - 3 girls (Winnie the pooh and rabbits) and 3 boys (robots) and he said how funnny it was that the robots destroyed the bunnies and bear and how all the class laughed.
It triggered something in me. I became toxic - lying on the lounge - undermining what he did because all that I saw was the gender divide rather than the 7year old humour (since both the boys and the girls made up the play).
My son isn't talking to me. He says he hates me and my partner told me I was low too.
This gd is impacting on me too much. Somedays are better than others, but since we have had to put on hold our HT trip to HRC I've been feeling it more and more.
Why did I do this? I'm the mother and need to hold it together, the last thing I want is for my sons to feel like I don't love what they do or that I'm not proud of them.
When I rang my mum she told me to get over it and enjoy the children I have. No empathy or advice from that corner....I just hope, after a play in the park, I can make it up to him somehow :(
My son was sharing his performance from school he and the others in his group made up - 3 girls (Winnie the pooh and rabbits) and 3 boys (robots) and he said how funnny it was that the robots destroyed the bunnies and bear and how all the class laughed.
It triggered something in me. I became toxic - lying on the lounge - undermining what he did because all that I saw was the gender divide rather than the 7year old humour (since both the boys and the girls made up the play).
My son isn't talking to me. He says he hates me and my partner told me I was low too.
This gd is impacting on me too much. Somedays are better than others, but since we have had to put on hold our HT trip to HRC I've been feeling it more and more.
Why did I do this? I'm the mother and need to hold it together, the last thing I want is for my sons to feel like I don't love what they do or that I'm not proud of them.
When I rang my mum she told me to get over it and enjoy the children I have. No empathy or advice from that corner....I just hope, after a play in the park, I can make it up to him somehow :(