2 lil pinks
February 13th, 2012, 02:53 PM
Hi there! I am new here and need to get some things off my chest & maybe a bit of advice :) I am the mom to 2DD whom I love ferociously! However, I do dream of wanting a DS, not only for me DH, but me just as much (if not more). Well after what I would call a mild sway (eating cereal everyday, bananas, very limited dairy, using baking soda prior to BD, "optimal" boy positions) I am currently preggers w/#3. I didn't chart at all, as I am VERY blessed to fall pg easily. This time I got EWCM early that am, we BD late that evening, nothing after that as DH left town on work, so it def was that one time...anyways....
Problem is: I am not enjoying it at all. I am fixated and terrified it will be another DD. I have done literally every gender test, OWT, looked in eyes for the veins, etc. It is ridiculous & it is consuming me! I have 100% convinced myself it is a girl. What the heck is wrong w/me? Why can't I just accept the things I cannot change or have control over?
DH does not want to find out gender because he's worried that if it is dd3 i will be depressed the remaining 20 weeks, and if by the grace of God it is DS1 that it will be anti-climactic at birth. He says"god will give us the family we need, we need to just focus on a healthy baby". I know this! I do! But I am terrified of even a moment of dissapointment at birth. I even am now thinking that maybe I will find out without him and keep it secret, but don't know if it will eat me alive either way it goes!
Any thoughts?
Problem is: I am not enjoying it at all. I am fixated and terrified it will be another DD. I have done literally every gender test, OWT, looked in eyes for the veins, etc. It is ridiculous & it is consuming me! I have 100% convinced myself it is a girl. What the heck is wrong w/me? Why can't I just accept the things I cannot change or have control over?
DH does not want to find out gender because he's worried that if it is dd3 i will be depressed the remaining 20 weeks, and if by the grace of God it is DS1 that it will be anti-climactic at birth. He says"god will give us the family we need, we need to just focus on a healthy baby". I know this! I do! But I am terrified of even a moment of dissapointment at birth. I even am now thinking that maybe I will find out without him and keep it secret, but don't know if it will eat me alive either way it goes!
Any thoughts?