Mulberry Smurf
April 2019
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, April 13th, 2014 at 03:07 PM (2833 Views)
That's a date to remember. For me, at least. Or rather for my family. That's the start of mission code name pink. Although technically I guess that mission started a long time ago.
To give a bit of background about us and our situation we have two beautiful sons, who are our absolute world. We only ever wanted one child and I didn't have a preference at the time we created our son. A healthy baby seemed more than we deserved at that time! When we saw that little baby shape on the 20 week scan and the sono tech pointed out 'the thing that isn't a leg!' We knew we were having our first boy.
Once he turned 6months our second boy decided he would quite like to also join our family so once again we were expecting. This time we asked for the sex to be written down and we shared the excitement together of opening that envelope. I felt a pang of disappointment that we weren't going to be able to shop for pretty dresses but so pleased my son was getting a brother to play with. When he arrived any disappointment I had been feeling soon melted away. He was (and is!) perfect. My first words were 'oh he is so beautiful!!'
And now we are embarking on our new mission. We want the chance to buy the frilly dresses and give our boys a little sister to play with. But not for 5 years. So why start now? I guess it's important for me to be honest with myself and admit that all along I felt I was missing out. I love the mother son relationship don't get me wrong but in the back of my mind I longed for a daughter to conspire with! My own little fresh faces darling girl to laugh with and love. And because of that longing it pains me to think I can't get her in my arms. So starting this journey now makes me feel like we are moving together, her and I. And one day in the not too distant future we will meet and know each other.
The plan is: sway first then if swaying fails we go high tech. But we start the we this year with a plan to freeze and use in 5 or so years. That's our goal. Thank you for reading if you managed this far! Xx