[QUOTE=Northern_Shutterbug;237954]Ive been on edge, irritable, bitchy, snappy and an emotional wreck all day. I should be ovulating today and had a +opk yesterday evening but within 8 hours it had gone from neg to pos to neg again, so I'm utterly confused - and have done about 6 more tests today and am none the wiser!

I am sure SIL is having a girl and it just feels like a kick in the teeth do its really made me depressed.

So, hubby has put the boys to bed after we all had a naughty takeaway and I'm now sat in this:

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Relaxing with music and candles.

I've also had a bit of a cry after 'talking' to my nan who passed away two years ago. I'm not mad, I just hope that her energy or something, call it a spirit, is still here in some way. I miss her and I feel guilty that I didn't see her enough. She only met my DS2 on her death bed as I hadn't made time to go down when he was really little, and she loved babies.

Anyway, I asked her to help us and bring us a little girl. I recently went through my Nan's jewelry box my Grandad gave me and I found a pendant of hers, which had a jewelled G in it. Her name began with E, so no idea why she had it. But I'd like to think its a sign as we want to call a girl Gemima if we are lucky enough to have a girl.

Anyway, I hope I can begin to relax and maybe tonight will be the night we make a girl![/QUOTE]