Northern_Shutterbug

  1. 20th April 2013 - evening

    We went out this afternoon, mainly to get the boys out as they wouldn't stop squabbling, but for some fresh air. Its the longest time I've not cried, but as we turned up, accidentally, at a family event, I felt sick and my stomach turned each time I saw a little girl.

    We came home and I desperately wanted to drown my sorrows, dull the pain with alcohol, but as I stood in front of the liquor cabinet I couldn't bring myself to get anything out. She's still alive, still in me, still ...
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  2. 20th April 2013

    I always thought people mainly went to church for the community, I obviously understood that they have a belief in a higher being, but could never understand why. How could they believe in someone who let so much bad happen and pass it off as 'god works in mysterious ways' or it was because of man's free will. I still don't understand that, especially now. How can a little girl, so longed for, be made so ill? How can a mother go through half her pregnancy to then be told her child is going to be ...
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  3. Tuesday 19th April 2013

    I didn't think I'd be writing this, but I knew things were too good to be true, we'd sold our old house, hubby was sailing through an interview process for a perfect job, and we were finally getting our little girl - I just knew something would topple, everything was too right. Heck, I even jinxed myself! Every pregnancy I've been careful not to get too carried away, and not to buy things too early, what could I expect! I bought bundles of clothes, we'd chosen a name, I imagined my life with a ...
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  4. 4 weeks - 252 days to go!

    This pregnancy I'm determined to document as much as I can! I was useless with both my boys and forget half of when things happened, etc.

    I'm only 4 weeks, 28 days pregnant! Only 252 days til my due date of the 6th September. If feels an age away!

    This week we've had Christmas day, where I spent most of the day alternating between gorging myself and feeling sick. I wanted Hubby to tell everyone but he just didn't seem to find the right time, even though there were ...
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  5. I need to relax

    [QUOTE=Northern_Shutterbug;237954]Ive been on edge, irritable, bitchy, snappy and an emotional wreck all day. I should be ovulating today and had a +opk yesterday evening but within 8 hours it had gone from neg to pos to neg again, so I'm utterly confused - and have done about 6 more tests today and am none the wiser!

    I am sure SIL is having a girl and it just feels like a kick in the teeth do its really made me depressed.

    So, hubby has put the boys to bed after we ...
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