Yes, stress and highs and lows and fear and denial and determination and a hundred other emotions come from my experience of going HT.

But another one is calmness. I was visiting a friend who has a daughter and though in the past I'd had a hard time interacting with her daughter (and hid it of course) - it just brought on immediate sadness and longing within me - this time was different.

I felt free. I can't foresee the future but this little girl has no bearing or ...

I realized I now check this site many times a day. And Facebook a couple times a month at best. And for me, that's healthy. Facebook never makes me happy. Occasionally I'm interested in an article or quote someone posts - recently there was a 10 secrets of happy couples list that I liked. But by and large I leave Facebook sadder than I was before. It's an obvious trigger and I'm happier for checking it less.

I wonder how I will feel when I'm really getting close HT wise - will I ...

If it is, I'm about to start cycle 2. Excited! Have been healthier this cycle except for sleep, despite (mostly) best efforts. We'll have to see what comes...

DH tried olive leaf but eventually stopped - gave him stomach aches. I feel better that he at least tried.

Resolution - in bed by 9:45 every weeknight til ER!

"My daughter"
"My little lady"
She / her, referring to someone in my family
"Daddy's girl"
"(DS1's) sister"
"(DS2's) sister"
"Yes, I'm a mom of three!"

I was thinking today that I could see myself keeping trying again and again until I'm holding my DD - I want it very much. I want to have a bassinet in my hospital room with a little 'It's a Girl!' card in the plastic sleeve. ...

Oh for joyous Saturdays - they lift up my week and balance out the stress etc that is my work week.

Had the most wonderful day with my family. DH is such a dream husband - I knew this when I met him but he's proven it out again and again. I'm a lucky lady. He made us all a yummy breakfast and took my eldest out so I got to snuggle and play with and kiss my baby and his beautiful baby-soft skin. We each got time alone with each boy during the day. My eldest and I sat and cuddled ...