If it is, I'm about to start cycle 2. Excited! Have been healthier this cycle except for sleep, despite (mostly) best efforts. We'll have to see what comes...

DH tried olive leaf but eventually stopped - gave him stomach aches. I feel better that he at least tried.

Resolution - in bed by 9:45 every weeknight til ER!

"My daughter"
"My little lady"
She / her, referring to someone in my family
"Daddy's girl"
"(DS1's) sister"
"(DS2's) sister"
"Yes, I'm a mom of three!"

I was thinking today that I could see myself keeping trying again and again until I'm holding my DD - I want it very much. I want to have a bassinet in my hospital room with a little 'It's a Girl!' card in the plastic sleeve. ...

Oh for joyous Saturdays - they lift up my week and balance out the stress etc that is my work week.

Had the most wonderful day with my family. DH is such a dream husband - I knew this when I met him but he's proven it out again and again. I'm a lucky lady. He made us all a yummy breakfast and took my eldest out so I got to snuggle and play with and kiss my baby and his beautiful baby-soft skin. We each got time alone with each boy during the day. My eldest and I sat and cuddled ...

I've been going to a counselor/therapist on and off to deal with work stress and sadness among other things. Today we talked about my thoughts and reasons for having a daughter, and dug into how negative I feel about the likelihood of HT working.

I keep telling myself this is unlikely to work, a 20-30% chance, to protect myself. And today he commented that these are compensatory thoughts which are putting me in a dark place. It's a familiar and comforting habit. But it's making ...

My painful GD experiences include:

- A close relative telling me "We were all hoping you were going to have a girl" right after I happily announced to 20 family members that we were having a boy

- A friend who found out she was having a boy after having a girl, consulted with me. She said she was very upset. She thought I'd understand. (I have two boys but have NEVER breathed a word about GD to anyone IRL, including her) Which means she thought it publicly ...