I can hardly believe I am sitting here writing this blog...I have never had a blog before but there is so much I need to say....and have no one to really say it to. From the moment I found out ds2 was a boy I started researching gender depression and came across the whole Microsort and IVF options. I remember getting up in the middle of the night just to read more about it..already looking ahead and not embracing the little being that was so perfectly put together inside of me. I struggled so much ...

Ok so my meds arrived by fed ex this morning.

It's funny that I felt no fear when saw them. My first cycle when the meds arrived they bought me out in a panic- I thought there was no way I could inject myself.

But I found it really easy and in a way made me feel like I was taking control. Every needle was a step close to my dream!!

I'm taking merional this time which is new to me but it looks similar to menopur!!

I will be on 300iu a day. ...

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Ok so tonight I booked flights and villa!!! And ordered meds.
I can't believe I'm doing this again.

I am not the type of person who does things like this........
It's crazy :)
No one knows in real life and sometimes I want to scream!!!

It's so hard to be here again but so exciting too.

I really dont want this to beat me!!!

Ok so I'm back

After a heartbreaking cycle at HRC (which I can't talk about for legal reasons ) I'm now having another attempt in Cyprus but this time with Dr Savvas at Genesis.

So far the clinic have been wonderful. I have learnt so much more through this Dr than I ever have before.

After seeing so many positive attempts I'm hopeful it will be third time lucky for me x

Today I start taking Dhea. Out of 10 embryos on my last cycle only ...

Nothing to do with swaying, but I just bought my eight-almost nine month old a ukelele. He's already banging away on it which obviously means he's a Mozart of teeny guitar like instruments. Or it could mean I'm crazy, because he's waving it around his head like a flag and any minute now he's going to whack me in the knees. Either way, he's happy.