This has been one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make, and I'm still not sure that I'm right. But it feels right, and I just have to go with that feeling.

I have mentioned before that DS2 is severely autistic. He will need care his entire life, and that care is expensive. While we could probably afford IVF and PGD, there is a part of me that feels like I would be stealing funds from DS2's care. And I just feel bad about doing that.

I'm at the point that I am considering yet another sway, but I would have to be Team Green, and I would really have to examine my emotions about having yet another boy, because this would truly have to be my last pregnancy. The perinatologist told me I was in surprisingly excellent condition, and that the baby looks awesome. He said he always recommends an amniocentesis for older women, but he wasn't recommending one for me because the baby and I are is such good shape. Maybe I'm healthy enough for another?