Originally Posted by
4blue2pink
Congratulations on the safe arrival of your healthy baby girl TP and im so happy to hear you had the drug-free natural birth that i know you wanted (i told you it was going to be quick ;) ) nursing like a champ and no tears is fantastic!!
i am so sorry this wasnt your boy :heart: i completely understand the sadness and everyone around you expects you to be on cloud 9 dont they.. I haven't really touched on my post-birth experiences with my boys (especially the ones born after the loss of our baby girl) as i feel its maybe too extreme and certainly doesnt fit with the general experience of "falling in love and not wanting to change a thing the second they are in your arms" im glad the majority of ladies do experience that!! but i never did... You are not alone in feeling how you do :heart:
i am also very glad to hear that your dh stepped up during your labour and was supportive :heart: if he is at least acknowledging your grief it sounds like maybe things with him are moving in a more positive direction, i truly hope it feels that way for you.
im not sure if my post is going to make much sense.. how can i be sincere about being both "so happy" and "so sorry" but i really do feel a mix of both after reading your update, i want to celebrate your positive birth, healthy baby and what i really hope is an improved situation with dh while being devastated for you that this wasn't your son :heart: i hope that somehow all of this makes some sort of sense..
finally and slightly off topic.. i would like to say Congratulations to your oldest daughter on becoming a big sister :heart: i know how much she has wanted this role and i hope it is every bit as magical and exciting as she had hoped for :)
Thinking of you and wishing you as much peace as possible as you get to know your new addition and settle into this new dynamic, i have no doubt that you are going to BOSS having 2!! but be kind on yourself, rest when you can and remember that we are all here for you whenever you need us :heart: lots of love xxx