Originally Posted by
Throwaway_panther
ABC, I am so sorry that your birth ended up so traumatic and I am desperately hoping you're doing better. You are so amazing to have ended up with a vaginal twin birth afterall and with FIVE hours between deliveries. I can only imagine how stressful that window of time was for you and am thinking of you.
4blue and hopper, all of your words have resonated with me so much and while I feel like I really bummed out this EDD group, I am really glad to see not only how not alone I am in how I feel... but to see that you both HAVE gone on to get your DG helps. Because at the moment, I sit here just trying to think at all positively going forward. It was one thing when I got a girl after starving myself, drinking a ton, overexercising, etc. It's another to have gotten a girl after swaying for over two years and very likely losing many boys, especially after unviable boys with IVF. I always knew it was an odds game: it just sucks that my run of bad luck and odds not going in my favor is continuing. 4blue, I think we are SO similar in all of this that it's crazy; especially with terminations being probably the only mentally sound option for us, though our partners (already such issues for us) being absolutely against it. I feel tears just wanting to express how grateful I am for you to share just how you've felt, and also how happy I am that my words really do help so many of you.
Atomic, I really appreciate your words too -- it really struck me how true this is. GD from the get to has made pregnancy borderline torture from the get go for me and I am envious of anyone that has just been able to be happy...
So thank you all so much. I have been reading every post these last few days.
While my experience is nothing like ABC's, I unfortunately have had an extremely traumatic experience postpartum in the hospital that I want to write about when I get a chance to sit down and type, so despite labor and recovery going better than I ever could have expected, I feel very sad that the hospital and my husband ended up traumatizing me in a very unexpected way.