Part 4: Due January, February & March 2019

[ABC.2606]

Girlsway good to hear from you! How's your baby girl doing?

Kiku you will hold your little girl in June!!! I know how you feel though - I've had the most anxiety this pregnancy of any of my pregnancies and I know a lot of it has to do with the losses!

Hopper awww she is so cute!!! I love it! Lots of time still for little man to flip so hopefully he does!! Seriously - my guy was in the craziest sideways & breech positions all the way up until 33-34 weeks and now he's head down and has dropped into place! His head is just a bit higher than his sister's now!

TP - Girl you've got this ENTIRE site on edge, LOL! We all care about you and are hoping/wishing for the best!!! Hope things are going well!

LMSM I don't know where TP is - for some reason I feel like she may be somewhere on the East Coast which would be 6:30 pm right now.

[SurroundedByBoys]

Im lurking... I feel like if I get up in the middle of the night (like I do 40x to use the bathroom) Ill be on here checking for news. :P Same thing when its your turn ABC!

[Mommy2apples]

Yes, that anxiety comes with the losses, until
I held Emmalyn in my arms that day I was still
Unconvinced I was going to bring my baby girl home. The day of I just kept thinking is this really happening?

[Kelbear]

TP Hoping you are holding your new Bub now to and that you got your little boy. Can't wait to hear update.
Sorry I have been absent the past few weeks since my little girl's arrival - she is not a good sleeper at night but hopefully that will improve. She is adored by her brothers and I. we can't imagine life without her in it.
Can't believe you are all so close to meeting your bubs soon. Hope you are all doing ok. Can't believe you have kept the twins in so long ABC, that is amazing.

[Babybeaublue]

Girlsway she's beautiful! Glad she's doing well

Still no TP news??!! I'm going crazy here!!

[Noemi2017]

Girlsway happy to hear about u your baby girl is amazing u must be sooo happy

[Greydore]

Girlsway! So nice to hear from you, and your daughter is just precious!

[TA Sait]

Woooww she is so cute. Such an adorable smile..

[Throwaway_panther]

Baby is a girl.

Two hour labor after all was said and done, and managed pain med free despite pitocin and had no tears despite 3 pushes total to get baby out. 8 lb, 11 oz and 20.5 inches at officially 41+2.

I'd appreciate if all of you won't do the "meant to be" lines and so on. I'm not devastated but very sad that I was right all along and went through so much for my journey to still not be over, and I'd be lying if I didn't say that this baby doesn't feel like a rainbow -- that the storm is still there.

I am not as bonded or instantly in love like I was with DD, so I'm just trying to take it moment by moment. Feels surreal to say "she" honestly. But she is nursing like a champ and looks so different from DD that I'm just trying to learn this new person. Labor actually seemed to bring DH and I together even though I know he and others on my team can tell I am still carrying grief with this baby.

I so thought at the beginning of this pregnancy that something was finally going to go my way! But all I can think of now is how the last 3 years of misery could still have been paving the way for me to still hopefully get my boy. So just taking things moment by moment.

[ksmom]

I'm so sorry TP. I understand that feeling of sadness. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here. Huge hugs!