Congrats mommylife!
I believe thirdtimelucky also had a successful (pink) sway.
Bunnygirl - I’m so, so sorry.
I wish there was something I could do or say to help. I’m thinking of you and your family.
Also, I’m sorry for disappearing on you all! Thank you to everyone for all your comments and support, and those who private messaged me too, thank you so much!
I’m so sorry I haven’t gotten back to anyone yet (I will, I promise!). I’ve been keeping up with the posts in this thread, I just had to step back from the site for a bit. It’s still hard for me to come here.
It’s like abifasc and I had both mentioned a while back. I love having boys and being a boy mom! At this point I’m actually excited for a boy!
We’re about 97% sure Miles will be his name and we’ve been calling him that already.
It’s just that this is almost definitely our last baby, and the thought of never having a daughter still makes me SO sad.
I had my NT scan three days after we got the NIPT back and it was great! Normal NT measurement, and it was SO cool to see him looking like an actual baby already. He was moving all around! I actually had tears seeing him. That helped me SO much. I’m 15+4 today and have been feeling tiny flutters for a few weeks now, and I love it.
I have my next appt on Tuesday at 16w and I’m excited to finally be able to hear the heartbeat on the Doppler in the office!
I’m not sure why it’s so hard for me to come here still. At this point I almost feel like I’m dealing with this awful sense of “I failed” rather than gender disappointment, if that makes sense. There’s still a huge part of me that is sad at the thought of never having a daughter... but almost more than that, I almost feel like, what was the point? What did I do wrong? Looking at even just the 2020 stats alone, there are SO many pink sway successes. I did only the things that work for most people, most of the time. LE diet, exercise, one attempt, and alcohol, coffee, and fiber. I don’t know what I could have done differently. Maybe the PCOS diet? However, I’m not even sure I COULD do that — I actually lost TOO MUCH weight, I was underweight when I got my bfp. I struggled at the end with trying to keep on weight and had just started to increase my calories and fat when I got my bfp. I almost feel like cutting out sugar on the PCOS diet would make me lose TOO much weight, I’m not sure I could do it. So what else even is there? Nothing!
I still feel like we might just be “too fertile” of a couple to have a girl. Despite all the weight I lost, and being underweight, my body kept right on ovulating on CD13, as it’s done basically for the last 9 years (I’ve charted on and off since 2011). We had only ONE attempt (perfectly timed, of course, but still) and I STILL got pregnant on the first try. I’ve actively never experienced a negative pregnancy test (and I’m SO thankful for that!). I’ve been pregnant three times — three times TTC, three times pregnant on the first try, including the this time with just one attempt. And three boys. I know the average couple has something like a 30% chance of getting pregnant each month, even with perfect timing, yet it’s happened for us every single time we’ve ever tried. I just think that together, as a couple, there must be something that increases our chances to more than the average couple? And the entire point of swaying pink is to lower fertility enough to still get pregnant but up the chances of a girl. Maybe we are just TOO fertile together, that no matter what we do, it’s just not enough to lower us into the pink territory?
I just don’t know. I was destined to be a boy mom, I suppose! And clearly this little boy was meant to be ours. In the end, we just wanted another BABY. The day after I got my NIPT results, someone in my May due date group on Reddit got her results and they could only find one X chromosome. They told her there was a number of things it could be (including lab error) but it was a super stressful experience for her, and that kind of put things into perspective for me. My NIPT results were all low risk, and I had a great NT scan, and everything is going perfect so far. We could be in a completely different situation right now, and I’m so grateful that we are not.
Plus, my due date is in exactly the time frame we were hoping for, so the timing is absolutely perfect! We have absolutely nothing to be upset about, other than the fact that we didn’t get the girl we hoped for.
I hope it will get easier for me to post here, because I miss it! I think I just need to shake the feeling of failure. Every time I come on here I’m instantly reminded of all that I did and it just brings back the overwhelming feeling of failure and sadness. I know it’s silly, I didn’t fail - I’m making a baby! It’s still so crazy to think, sometimes I still can’t believe I’m actually pregnant again! I’m going to try my hardest to keep up here because I miss posting and talking with you all!
Thanks for reading my ramblings if you made it this far.
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It’s been awhile but I keep meaning to come back and say we swayed girl in 2022 and had a little girl in early 2023! First girl born in 110+ years on my husband’s side.[emoji179]
2022 Pink Sway Results!