Originally Posted by
heidih1977
yeah it is really tough. I am also torn with guilt feelings for even feeling like this way at all when you think about all the women that suffer losses or cannot even conceive in the first place. My scan is 8 days away and I feel physically sick at the thoughts of it. Even though I am trying to convince myself this another boy in order to avoid disappointment I know I will be absolutely gutted. There are now 5 other friends/ family members that are expecting later this year and there is one confirmed girl already. I just know I will be the one with the next boy and they will all be sitting opposite me in the summer with their little girls....I just don't know how I will cope with that. I am not a naturally jealous person but this topic or subject just engulfs me with jealously when I think of friends having little girls and me none. God I won't be sleeping a wink this day week!!!!