Originally Posted by
jmm0616
Well, I got my gender blood test results in today. It's horrible because they leave the results on an answering service that you call and call until your mailbox has a message. That made it so much more difficult to hear "It's a boy!" I think I am still in shock/disbelief. I was doing so good at guarding myself from thinking it could be a girl (wouldn't let myself think of names, look at anything girly, even talk about my desires for one to some of my closest friends), but the past few days, I had a change of heart and started feeling like maybe it actually could be a lil pink bundle, but nope - my gut was right from the beginning and here we are.....We have had a tough time with our second DS - just colic, cranky, horrible time with teething - just really unhappy all of the time, that I have thought I am just not sure how I will do this with another boy. At least with a girl, it would be a different and new experience (although I know it would still be tough, but at least different). It now just seems overwhelming to think about starting over with another one. I love my two boys more than words can say and know I will feel just the same for this one but it's a tough pill to swallow at this very moment. Sorry if I seem all down, it's just hard when I feel like you can't talk about GD with many people because either they have no clue what you are going through and can't relate for one reason or another or they feel like I am ungrateful for what I do have. Of course, I am not, but it is a whole string of emotions I just can't help but feel plus my DH wanted a lil girl just as much as I did and so I feel almost doubly disappointed. I hope the rest of you waiting to find out hear what you want, I really, really do!!