Yep i will def find out, i've known with all three of my boys - couldn't bear the thought of feeling even a little disappointed at birth, the guilt of gd during pregnancy is hard enough but at least then its direct to a theoretical boy as opposed to the beautiful new one you've just made. Even so i don't want to spend the next 10 weeks getting my hopes up.
I've spent most of this journey with the majority of the lovely ladies in your thread and its you all that i feel closest to (i just missed the party by a couple of cycles) but i figured since some of my closest friends on here are going through the same emotions i don't have to deal with it all alone and could crash your thread