Thread: I am becoming depressed
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June 23rd, 2012, 11:05 PM #1
I am becoming depressed
I have been trying for 13 months, and I am pretty sure I am out this month. You would think that since it is taking me so long to conceive I would just want a baby, boy or girl, but the longer it takes the worse my gender desire is getting. I am becoming someone I am not proud of. Very jealous of all the other women I know having girls (and I know A LOT of them). Every time someone announces they are pregnant I know it will be girl. I just have this feeling my next will be a boy, and I have gone through all of this for nothing. Then of course there is this fear that I can't have another baby because it is taking so long to conceive.
After this cycle I have to begin to see an RE and I am sure they will want to do IUI's and I know they sway boy. It is not that I wouldn't love my son, because I KNOW for a fact that I would, I just want a daughter so badly.
Thanks for letting me get this out.
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June 23rd, 2012, 11:08 PM #2
What have you tried to sway Kasey? Have you tried Vitex yet?
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June 23rd, 2012, 11:10 PM #3
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June 23rd, 2012, 11:18 PM #4
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June 23rd, 2012, 11:20 PM #5
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June 23rd, 2012, 11:23 PM #6
Last edited by Butterfly Spirit; June 23rd, 2012 at 11:34 PM.
Age 7 5 MC May 2012 BFP June 2012 My ~*Princess*~ is now 3 yrs old! MC May 2015 Chemical June 2015
DS#3 Arrived in April
I love my Rainbow Baby with all my , She took a year to conceive! Thank you GD!
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June 24th, 2012, 04:18 AM #7Banned
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I know exactly your feeling......did 2 times HT both with severe fragmented embryos. So hard to get pregnant with them. The second time we decided that our son deserves a sibling so we put back 2xx and 2xy (we wanted a girl). We hoped that a girl would stick and if there was a boy too it was very okay. No I'm 13 weeks pregnant with probably a boy. It feels like I'm the only one who did HT and gets back with an opposite of what I really wanted (okay we knew it was a possibility but why do I have always bad luck?!?!) I'm so jealous of other HT women who gets what they want.....It feels for me the same that I deserve that girl after doing HT.....
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June 24th, 2012, 10:51 PM #8
I understand what you mean....you probably feel even more desperate for that little girl because now there a potential threat of not having anymore at all. Someone without GD wouldn't get that probably....but we probably all do!
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June 24th, 2012, 10:53 PM #9
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June 25th, 2012, 03:53 AM #10Banned
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Kasey that's exact the same feeling I have so it does make very much sense!!! Hugs!
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