First miscarriage, this sucks

[LacePrincess]

Well I guess I've been lucky to never have gone through this horrible experience before. We've never been all that fertile, but we've always had sticky beans once I've gotten a BFP.

I guess I didn't realize how blessed I truly was until now. This really sucks even though I was mentally prepared after my bfp's didn't seem to get any darker. Well now I know for next time.

I got my first strong BFP with this bean at 12dpo, and got positives all the way to yesterday morning at 18dpo, except they were getting fainter which worried me. Then started light spotting yesterday afternoon, and it gradually got red and started full AF flow overnight. Cervix is open so yup, definitely out.

It still hurts like a bitch even though I was half expecting it after some fainter bfp's.

Looking at the bright side, at least we did conceive and my LP was plenty long enough as I had no temp dip issues or spotting until the m/c started at 18dpo. So the B6 did work which is great. And, if I'm to have a loss I'd much rather an early loss like this one than a missed m/c or a later loss. Doesn't suck any less but at least we get to keep trying right away.

Hubby's no help, typical guy. He just says oh well, we'll just try again, it'll be fine. Well I KNOW THAT. Doesn't mean I don't need to wallow and have a good cry and sulk first!!

Damn I knew putting that pregnancy ticker in my sig was cursing me, next time I think I'll wait for a bit longer.

The only thing that's keeping me a bit cheery is knowing that many ladies are very fertile immediately following a chemical, and that it sways pink!

[strawberrymom]

Lace- I am so sorry for your loss .

[fish2012]

oh lace rubbish news xxx

[Mum23boys]

Oh huny Im sorry this has happened to you - I had exactly the same in October though was a l bit further along than you were but non the less no matter what stage it still hurts - My hubby was the same and then when we got pregnant his time he burst my bubble of excitement with the "lets not get too excited you know what happened last time etc" and it put a real downer on it for me - same when we lost a twin he was like "what will be wil be nothing we can do about it so no point thinking about it" where as weeks on Im still scared by it and cant help but imagine life with twins.

It does take time but have a cry and have a sulk and come back feeling stronger - i know that trying again helped me get over it

Good luck for your next attempt. x

[wilma_five]

I'm so sorry!!
And yes, I conceived a girl right after a chemical!!!

[Justjessica]

Sorry to hear that. A miscarriage is painful at any stage. I think as women we naturally wonder about what they would have been like, when they would have been born. Blokes are so detached. It's normal to need time to grieve. Hope it sways pink for you so some good can come out of this horrible experience for you.

[rainbowflower]

so sorry for your loss

how long was your LP before this?

[Dreamofpink]

Oh Lace, I really was hoping for better news for you You poor thing, it really is awful for you to have to go through that. Sending you a big hug I'm so sorry for your loss. x x

[aussiettc]

Hi Lace. I'm hearing you-I had my first m/c two weeks ago (like you, it was early) and I felt incredibly sad. It helped to have a good cry and then start looking forward to the next cycle (we're just about to try again and hoping there will be a silver lining to this sadness-praying it will sway pink this cycle!)

[babygirlforme]

Lace I am so sorry to read your news. Sending you huge hugs!