Decisions decisions, help me decide!
Hi everyone! I am in turmoil and undecided when I should make my attempt, please help me make up my mind!
I have been vegetarian since February. I started the LE diet about 2.5 months ago and did it very strictly for 6 weeks, losing 3kg in that time. However, I am still BF my 13 month old son and I hadnt got PPAF back yet. I decided it was silly to be on the diet and losing weight etc when I was not even ovulating yet, and I didnt want to risk losing all the weight I had to "play with" before AF even came along. So I took about 4 weeks off the diet, gained back 1kg (not intentionally, just by normal vegetarian eating). Then a week ago I decided I was sick of waiting and that I would resume the LE diet so I could attempt as soon as my AF came back. I really wanted to be on the LE diet for at least 6 weeks before my first attempt. I dont know why, but I really have 6 weeks stuck in my head... I have a theory that the people who have been on the LE diet for a long time seem to have the most success. So anyway, I was dismayed yesterday to suddenly have ovulation pain and I am quite confident that I ovulated. I only have been back on the diet for a week. I have clomid to take when I start TTC, hoping it will give me a normal length cycle instead of the long ones I usually have. That means that if the clomid does make me ovulate, I would have my first attempt in about 4 weeks from now after only being back on the LE diet for 5 weeks. If I DONT attempt then though, and have to wait out another full cycle (which could be long if I dont take the clomid... which I wouldnt if I was not attempting) I likely wont get to attempt till November.
I am totally in 2 minds what to do. The one thing I promised myself up until now is that I am not going to get impatient and rush my sway, that I am going to give everything 100% my best shot even if it takes a while. I keep telling myself I want to have no regrets, and that in the grand scheme of my life I would much rather have a baby girl a month or 2 later than a baby boy a bit earlier. If I waited out the next cycle I could probably get down to my lowest adult conception weight and feel 100% like I had given this my best shot. I dont think I would have potential regrets if I fell pg with a boy after waiting it out. But - I am impatient! I want to try now, I am sick of GD, I want my baby girl. Part of me feels like I am silly to hold out another whole cycle simply because I will be ovulating a week earlier than the 6 weeks I have in my head that I want to be on the LE diet for. I know that it is very likely I will not fall pg the first month, that it could take a long time. My family is sick of me being on the diet. We are going on holidays with the inlaws in early December and my 2nd attempt may fall around this time... it will be very tricky to hide the diet from them. I am worried about having to do the diet over the Christmas period and how hard that might be. I have friends who are pg at the moment and I would like my baby to be close in age to them. There are many things that are driving my heart to making me want to try next cycle... even though my head says "NO... STOP... be patient and give this your best shot... it is probably your last chance". Any pearls of wisdom anyone can impart to me? Thanks in advance for any advice.
