Team Green but on the fence of finding out
I thought I really wanted to be team green this pregnancy.This will most likely be our last baby, I am high risk and had a horrible experience after the birth of my daughter. DH really wants a DS as does his side of the family, all girls for grandchildren. Well MIL and FIL are pushing for me to find out because "they really are hoping for a boy". I feel I'm under so much pressure to deliver a boy that I fear what will happen if I have a girl?! Ugh, I just don't know what to do and if I will be disappointed. I'm starting to think if I find out that I can prepare myself for how to deal with any neg comments about another girl, but really love the idea of being surprised at delivery. I feel not knowing may help me through the delivery. Anyone else in the same boat? Or have advice on how to deal with possible gender disappointment from family?