I feel like my sway is not good enough!! Anyone else?
So I have been posting like a psycho lately because our first attempt is in about 24 days. I have been following the HE diet but I seem to cheat every few days. We've gotten Chinese (which is highly processed) a few times, lately I ate some milk chocolate and candy, and I was still drinking diet coke until recently (which is horrible I know). I'm eating a ton of nuts, cereal, and trying to eat carbs and protein at every meal. I am not a big red meat eater but I plan on picking it up the next few weeks. I've been trying to eat a lot of bananas and potatoes too. Plus everyday I drink a V8 and lots of lemon water.
I've been lifting weights 25 minutes a day 3X a week but was going to try for 35 min. 4X a week for the next few weeks
I'm taking prenatal, folic acid, B12, C, and fish oil. DH is taking multi, l'arginine, fish oil, C, and B6. I took EPO af to O this month to see what it did and it seemed to improve cm. I plan on doing BSF as well.
I feel like everything I am doing is not good enough and I'm very nervous. I really don't want to gain weight (I actually would like to lose 8 pounds I gained at the end of 2012) and I think that is affecting my view on everything and increasing my doubt. That and the fact that I can't make it through a week without cheating a few times on the diet.
Does anyone else have these feelings of self doubt? I think it is hard for me as well because no one knows I'm swaying, not even dh (he thinks the vitamins are for health purposes only) so I have no outlet and except for the internet for all my feelings and doubts!! Thanks in advance if you took the time to read this!!