Friend just a DD... after three sons
I was doing pretty well with gd, until yesterday when I found out that a friend of mine just had her baby. She has three boys and didn't find out the gender for the fourth. I'm really happy for her... but nervous for myself. My head knows that the fact that she had a girl has absolutely no bearing on the outcome of my pregnancy. But I guess it just brings my desire to the forefront. I am trying to convince myself how awesome it's going to be to have four boys (we plan to find out the gender with our last ultrasound, at 28-32 weeks, but not tell anyone else). The three boys together really are a hoot - I'm sure not so different from three girls or three mixed gender children - but they are mine and they are very fun and even sleep together just about every night. It really is fun to watch (you know, when they don't drive me crazy), and I'm sure having a fourth will be a wonderful addition. It's just that... I have that void and I really hope that I can overcome that if this baby is indeed a boy. This is absolutely the last one. I'm happy for her... is it just that misery loves company? I really need to let go since it is what it is, and nothing I can do could possibly change the outcome, whatever it is.