The hardest part of my job...
is delivering girl babies! I am a physician who is honored to attend births. However, almost all of my patients have been having girls lately!
Yesterday, this mom had a beautiful baby girl. She already had a 2 year old boy. When this sweet pink girl was born, the mom and her sister just burst in to tears - saying "she is here, she is really here," hugging and kissing and holding her tight. She told me how they were naming her after mom's 2 sisters. You could tell this was a much wished for girl.
It is really hard to be in that moment of elation - I find myself praying desperately that that will be me next time. I feel tears welling up and I can't cry in my position. I have little flashbacks of me last time crying without being able to stop at the announcement about my suprise - "it's a boy" - and I am so sad that they were not tears of joy.
One bright spot was that I felt really happy for her. I didnt feel jaded or slighted. My best friend is pregnant too and she has 2 boys like me. We dont know what she is having yet but I actually feel hopeful she is having a girl. I think in the past, I would have worried that I would be too sad, jelous, etc.
