Feeling sad, need to vent
I have been putting off my sway for months. One thing after another keeps coming up. There are many reasons of course why I want another child & esp a DD. One of those reasons is to name her after my grandmother. (All of out children have been named after someone important in our lives)
As I write this today my Grandma is in hospice & since my child has yet to even be conceived there is no way that she can ever meet that child or know that I named the child after her. I did tell her that I wanted to do this but it is still breaking my heart. Well really my heart would be breaking no matter what but this seems to make it so much worse, almost like I let them both down. Sorry to be a bummer but since no one even knows that we want to have anther child I really don't have anyone to talk to about this.
Just so very sad today....
