prayed to God to please help me get rid of my bad feelings of being jealous of my friends who are expecting due in Sept&Oct who both have 2 boys each and praying for a girl . I just want to be happy for them and be at peace with myself if i hear the words i think i am gonna hear "Boy #7". I really feel girl for them cause they both say they hardly have a appetite where i am eating like a pig
:( Sometimes i feel like someone put root on me or something (sorry if i sound crazy). Like back when i was pregnant with boy #6 another friend was also pregnant (she had 3 boys) after finding out it was boy #6 for me, i was secretly hoping She would get another boy so that She wouldn't rub having a girl in my face. So guess what She got a girl! I was happy for Her but couldn't shake the fact i was so jealous and like that's not fair. She called and was so excited giving me the news when i got off the phone i had to have cried about an hour. Our friendship even changed we weren't as close anymore i guess cause like we no longer had anything in common. I was back to being an all boys mom! I feel yes my friends have every right to jump for joy if they get their girls but it's gonna suck for me i will be back on the all boy side alone. i just want them to understand how it feel and be a little sensitive to my feelings. If i finally get lucky and get my girl i will always be sensitive to those going through what i once did. I guess that's what i want my friends to understand if i am not as lucky as them.