Feel so bitter I'm

I feel so bad for feeling this way but I just can't help it. It seems like lately all the pregnant women around me are giving birth to baby boys and it just feels like another stab in the heart everytime I hear another birth story - its a reminder of what I don't have and I find myself feeling so bitter and asking God why not us?
I even find myself over compensating for my disappointment by gushing OTT with happiness in front of other ppl because I think they know I am actually bitter inside that its not me.
I dream of having my son every night, I'm so so scared this little man will never be part of our family and complete us. So sorry for sharing such a negative vibe, I just feel so torn up inside and hope there are others out there who can understand x

Sorry you are having such a hard time. Every single lady on here understands what you are going through. That is why we are here. What you are feeling is completely natural and nothing to feel ashamed about. I truly hope you get your DS or find peace in another way. I am sending you all my blue dust and believe me I have a lot if it!!!!

Thank you Emily, I am sending you all of my
Pink dust in return, lots of love and luck to you x

You know, its so interesting that we feel this way. I was talking to my BFF today and she described to me the feelings of hurt and anger she is experiencing at all the ladies around her who are pregnant or having babies.

She married a man who has 3 children already and won't even discuss having a baby with her. The background on the marriage is a long and not worth getting into, but I completely related to every thing she was saying but in a Gender disappointment way.

When my GD was at its worst I couldn't stand another pregnant woman or the thought of having to fake my way through someone else's baby shower. I remember horrible sinking feelings every time I found out someone with all girls was having a boy. I literally felt sick and dizzy and upset.

So, you aren't alone. Like Emily said, we can all relate very well.

Hang in there. Time has been my friend and it will only help you too.

Hugs mama, it gets better, I promise.

Hi Mummy P

You are not alone, I am desperate for a son to complete my family as well.

It makes me feel sick even thinking about my sister or sister in laws being pregnant with a son when I have wanted one for years.

This is a safe space, post away.

Wishing you lots of blue dust :)

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Originally Posted by zebaniee

Hi Mummy P

You are not alone

This is a safe space, post away

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Well said! Even your darkest thought will have been thought be someone else here a million times over. It helps to unburden and have a bitchfest sometimes ;)