Feel sad and guilty even posting here...
I have a 3 year old son and recently found out we are expecting another boy. I knew from the beginning that I was hoping for a little girl, while my husband and son really wanted another boy. I thought that I would be happy either way though and really didn't stress about it, I was just happy to be pregnant. When I heard "boy" at the ultrasound, I felt a small wave of disappointment but I thought it would quickly pass. I was wrong. I can't seem to let go of the fact that I might not ever have a little girl. I can't wait to meet my new son and have no doubt that I will love him though. Me and my husband have only talked about having 2 kids, but it took us longer to conceive the second time around and our kids are farther apart in age than we originally hoped for. I am hoping to have a third closer in age to our youngest son so that he has a sibling to play with. I mentioned it to my husband, but he thinks I only thought of it because we are not having a girl. This is not true, I wanted to have kids close in age anyway but unfortunately things did not work out with the first two and our son will be 4 when his brother is born and starting school by the time they are actually able to play together. I have already started planning a girl sway, but I am thinking I would have do to this without involving my husband. I know I would be happy with another boy eventually but would like to know I did everything in my power to sway pink. I wish I could just enjoy this pregnancy but I feel like something is just not complete in my life now. I had no idea I would ever feel this way. I even dream that I am having a girl and wake up feeling sad. I just hope I can move on and that maybe things will work out for me later on down the road.
