With all my pregnancies what I thought was disappointment soon turned into just desire to try again. I accepted that I had yet another girl and just dreamed of having a boy eventually. I'm really worried that if this 5th baby does turn out to be a 5th girl that it will always stay disappointment, because I'm not going to be trying again. And so far everything is pointing girl. So I can't hold on to the desire anymore. I'll have to accept that I'm done.