Feeling blue

And not in a good way. I put everything into the last two months of sway, that this month is really hitting the back burner. I have a new personal trainer, and I'm having trouble explaining to her that I'm not trying to lose weight, I'm trying to build muscle...so I don't feel like I'm getting as much lifting done as I was doing before. But I have started these new workout classes that are circuit training with weights and cardio. It's not kickboxing, nor is it just carido...it's pretty intense...I just hope that's not too "girl sway". But in any case, my bloodwork for my yearly check up basically told my dr that I'm doing too much lifting and not enough cardio (sort of blew my mind when she said that, because its true)

My diet has been picky lately. After learning how much I gained, I'm having trouble eating as much as I have been (been doing the diet since March, but really kicked it up in may and June).

I haven't been eating my lemons, or drinking as much water, or eating as many fruits and veggies.

We took a week off of dtd after last O. At first, it was because I was tired and physically sore from our O activities, but the BFN zapped my drive. And even now, we are just getting back to every other day.

I'm just in a big hole that I can't dig myself out of. I really didn't think I would be one of those people ttc longer than 2 months, and now I'm getting worried that my wait is going to be a long one...or, that ill get pregnant as soon as my midwife's planned vacation runs into my due date. Which will really suck, because she's the only one within 100 miles that will let me homebirth VBAC.



Just really hating the tww for O, then the tww for af. I'm constantly stressing about this. I need to get pregnant so I can just move on.

:hugs: we have all been there, I remember saying in one of the 2WW threads while I was trying was that I was fed up with stuffing my face and trying to make sure I took my supplements and making sure that DH wasn't helping himself everyday. It was exhausting! I said in the thread that if I didn't get a BFP this time around I was taking a break, I did end up getting my BFP but honestly I probably wouldn't have taken a break because I had put so much work and effort into swaying and getting pregnant that I would of felt like I wasted so much time.
With all that being said, if you feel like you are putting too much weight on and can't keep up with all the eating that really isn't a problem. You don't have to stuff your face full of food just eat until your full and skip the junk food, eat whole grains and good proteins with veggies and you can skip some of the juice since those have a lot of sugar in them. As long as you do that you shouldn't put on anymore weight. If you are doing weight training with your clean eating you will start to see a difference in your body and if you do put on more weight it is most likely muscle and not fat. Your doing a great job and hopefully you get your BFP soon so you can put your mind at ease :hugs:

Thanks! That's exactly how I feel, like I want to take a break, but I've been in this for so long, that there's no way I would really do it.

I am seeing a chiropractor this month, so maybe hat will help. We'll see.

I too am feeling this same way. We have been ttc since dec 12' and on HE diet since March. Jan and mar were 100% busts with no chance of pg due to various reasons and June there was small chance, but unlikely. When I started on the ttc#3 journey, I never would have thought that come August (now) I would still be ttc. DD1 took us 9 mon to conceive, as I had a mc in July 08' and did not get a cycle until almost 3 mon after and my cycles finally regulated 5 months after they returned. DD2 happened by surprise on the first month ttc#2. This journey this time around has been filled with ups and downs, perfect cycles only to get af. Each month that goes by and I get af, I get more upset and want to just quit because I am tired of being disappointed. I too have gained weight and I try my hardest to exercise but I work 40 hrs a week and take care of my kids, and I know it can be done somehow but finding time is hard. I don't eat crappy but I was used to eating the girly diet stuff and watching calories so adding in more has led me to gain weight. I have thought about quiting the HE diet and supplements but then I think about all the hard work I have put into this and I just cant throw in the towel just yet. Every month that goes by I definitely feel like maybe I am not supposed to have more children, maybe 2 is it for me and dh. Sometimes I just feel so lost because there are so many women who are getting pg not even trying, and I think why cant that be me. I know I ovulate and my cycles are pretty regular. It could be dh or maybe its just not time yet. I have an apt with my obgyn next month and I will bring my concerns to her to see if she has insight to this. Deep down, I feel that whatever will happen is meant to happen and that when or if it is ever my time, it will happen. Until then...this waiting sucks and is hard to deal with sometimes.

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Originally Posted by missmegrn

I too am feeling this same way. We have been ttc since dec 12' and on HE diet since March. Jan and mar were 100% busts with no chance of pg due to various reasons and June there was small chance, but unlikely. When I started on the ttc#3 journey, I never would have thought that come August (now) I would still be ttc. DD1 took us 9 mon to conceive, as I had a mc in July 08' and did not get a cycle until almost 3 mon after and my cycles finally regulated 5 months after they returned. DD2 happened by surprise on the first month ttc#2. This journey this time around has been filled with ups and downs, perfect cycles only to get af. Each month that goes by and I get af, I get more upset and want to just quit because I am tired of being disappointed. I too have gained weight and I try my hardest to exercise but I work 40 hrs a week and take care of my kids, and I know it can be done somehow but finding time is hard. I don't eat crappy but I was used to eating the girly diet stuff and watching calories so adding in more has led me to gain weight. I have thought about quiting the HE diet and supplements but then I think about all the hard work I have put into this and I just cant throw in the towel just yet. Every month that goes by I definitely feel like maybe I am not supposed to have more children, maybe 2 is it for me and dh. Sometimes I just feel so lost because there are so many women who are getting pg not even trying, and I think why cant that be me. I know I ovulate and my cycles are pretty regular. It could be dh or maybe its just not time yet. I have an apt with my obgyn next month and I will bring my concerns to her to see if she has insight to this. Deep down, I feel that whatever will happen is meant to happen and that when or if it is ever my time, it will happen. Until then...this waiting sucks and is hard to deal with sometimes.

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Tell me more about this bloodwork??

I do want you guys to understand that after you've been on HE for a while, you can relax somewhat. Your body will have stored up some nutrients and it's no longer quite as critical for you. I would recommend dropping to 2000 cals and getting your carbs from fruits/veg rather than grains.

The body definitely keeps hold of its nutrients for us blue swayers, which I think is one of the pink swayers biggest obstacles as they are going against what their body is programmed to do:) Plus between the food and supps we are sending truck loads of goodness through our systems, especially when you look back to old times when feast was a bowl of berries, a bit of pork and a good turnip harvest lol and they still had their boys:bigsmile: BFN's are def depressing but hopefully theyre will be a run of bfps soon:)

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Tell me more about this bloodwork??

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You know, if I could, I would. My dr does yearly blood work to check vitamin levels, thyroid levels, cholesterol, and about a dozen things in between. I just know she pointed to one number and asked if I've been doing a lot of weight training and said that the number was really high and she would like to see me doing more cardio to help balance it out. Sorry! I wish I had more info for you.

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Originally Posted by Rabbitmama85

You know, if I could, I would. My dr does yearly blood work to check vitamin levels, thyroid levels, cholesterol, and about a dozen things in between. I just know she pointed to one number and asked if I've been doing a lot of weight training and said that the number was really high and she would like to see me doing more cardio to help balance it out. Sorry! I wish I had more info for you.

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Im guessing if she said that then they were testing your testosterone level, since weight training increase T, I'm only guessing though