Ttc #3 feeling guilty about how much I'd love a daughter.
Hello,
So I've been 'stalking' this forum and a few others for months now. Basically I'm 34 and have 2 gorgeous Sons.
My eldest is 2 and was our lucky first try baby who was precious and premature. I BS for 12 months but despite this we conceived 3 months post-partum(!!). It was our 'let's see if s.e.x still works. We had another lovely Son.
I've put my teaching on hold to be a mum until our boys are at school. And have been trying to conceive our 3rd and final for a few months. My husband was very reluctant to have a 3rd for money reasons, so this really is our 3rd child.
I'm finding myself more and more desperate for a daughter. I long for the. Lose relationship and friendship my mum and I have. I do think there's something in the adage 'a sons a son until he meets a wife...'
I think I'd be a little heartbroken to know I couldn't have Daughter, which scares me tbh. With both gender scans I've felt sad. I'm just being honest so please don't judge me. I think it was just fear, but obviously it goes without saying I adore my sons and feel terrible about wanting a girl. It doesn't take anything away from the love I have for my sons I'm just feeling like I should be a girl mummy as well. do you gals understand?
So having taken fertility a bit for granted, conceiving so easily, I'm now frustrated and anxious that I'm doing it all wrong.
Every time we've tried I stop Bding as soon as I get a posititve opk. Nothing. So I'm worried that I should perhaps db more around O but obviously that is not going with the theory that I should avoid the fast Y sperm. Also cutting my chances by taking an antihistamine etc.
Should I just bd overy 2 days on my fertile days and stick to the LE diet?
My husband is stubborn and being difficult about embarking on a strict diet and has agreed only to cutting down on his cigarette consumption( he only smokes 1 per day usually so hoping he will stop this weekend ready for next weeks BD ing.
Any opinions would be greatly received.
Thank you
BC :flowerz: