Dreaming of Pink Ribbons and Lace leggings
Hello
My name is Brittney, I am the mommy of two perfect little boys. I am sitting here writing this with a lump in my throat and a pain in my heart. My husband and I have dreamed of having a little girl since we where high school sweethearts. Ten years and two boys later, that little girl I once dreamed of seems harder and harder to see. I was told my first son was a girl from 18-22 weeks. I bonded with a little girl, picked out her name and bought her pretty dresses. When my second son was clearly a boy at 16 weeks my heart broke, I cried for weeks. At the time I thought I was just a horrible mother for not being able to love the perfect baby boy God blessed me with. I didn't learn that gender disappointment and depression was something that many people suffered from. We took the first step towards PGD IVF today and called a infertility specialist. What we found out it that there is no way we will be able to afford to go forth with it. As my husband is sure he does not want more then three children we have only one last chance to balance our family. I don't know what else to say. I hope I can lean on you all throughout this and find peace somehow.